my little confidante

2010-06-07T07:47:00.002+08:00

2010 is the suckiest year evarrrrr. My heart pain keeps recurring, i keep getting tired easily [i read up and it stated tt it was due to the food we consume], i get the worse sickness blahblah.

Lucky 2010 left 6 more mths. Pls try to imagine the agony when it stepped into January.

First day of new year 1/1/2010, i had the biggest quarrel w joel evarrr. First day of cny, i quarrelled w my mummy till i was thrown out for smth not my fault. My bday i quarrelled w my daddy till i broke down. Which hardly i do since it wasnt my fault as well.

All in january. Can u imagine how anticipated i was towards the rest of the year heh?

2010-05-12T15:42:00.002+08:00

I want to quickly jot down the fweelings for these few days.

Nothing, and i really mean NOTHING can overwrite the happiness i have these few days.
Because i know i am improving myself (and my bloody cb temper), i feel so much better.

Why dint anyone tell me that apologizing with all your heart really makes me feel lighter?

If i had known, i would be less stubborn, less hateful, less pottymouth, less of so much more.
And the things i gained were patience, love, understanding and so much more.

Totally worth it to put down 3 mins of your pride, muster some courage and we have a better relationship with everyone else.

;

Anyway, me and joel are progressing into our honeymoon period again.
(The above para doesnt mean me and joel btw. We're great, till now :) )

He just got US a netbook and its freaking chio like me.
HAHAHAXZXZXZ

And we are planning to a weekend trip to genting to get away from all these heat.
Not going to plan a shopping spree.
Maybe just go there lan gaming HAHAHAXZ.

Did i mention my house is becomming a lan shop?
3 laptops 1 cpu = 4 computers wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And we all play maple together.
So fucking fun.

2010-05-10T09:34:00.002+08:00

Been to a funeral just days ago and i wanna quickly jot down each feeling before i forget them.

Joel's grandma passed away a week before Mother's Day.
Not really an ideal period to have any mothers leaving this world.

I have not seen his grandma in person while she was alive and was kinda 遗憾 that our first official meeting had to be this way. Joel did mention that he wanna bring me to see his grandma soon but i guess we were a little too late.

For a person who took care of my bf since young till secondary school, making him fall in love with fish porridge and let him know and feel the tiniest "family" feeling, nothing can describe how i felt while i stood infront of her, thanking her for all her care and concern.

I was told she had the Alzheimer's disease and can forget people whom she is together with everyday but remembers him. I was told she loved him the most and yes, he loved her back.

How can i not feel sad?

I thanked her with all i have, i prayed she will make it to a better place and to be rebirth to a good family.

That's all left for me to do.

What would i do if my close family left me?

I dont know.
And i dont want to know.

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Ps/ im a maple addict all over again.

Scary how they can get your heart so fast.
Cb i died cos of lag. And i swear my heart dropped :(

Why lidat..

2010-03-22T22:57:00.003+08:00

How to describe the past few days?

I seriously thought i was going to die.
Like really lor.

Kenna high fever in the night on Friday. Most prolly cos i got a little drenched in the rain DEN i go take the NEL train.

NEL TRAIN IS MTHERFKING COLD PLS.
But usually i run ard in big big rain also no prob, dunno why only drizzle also can sick.
Signs of getting old.

Den Saturday, i was bed ridden the whole day.
Song bo. I even got difficulty to get up to go to the toilet.
So i tahan den die die need go den i go.
Come back den immediately slam onto the bed.

Joel say he die die drag me go see doctor cos i took like 2x flu max + 2x panadol extra also cant help, instead got worse.

I go clinic, i see the staff nurse i sibeh dulan. I stand there wanna register den they bo hiu me.
I almost want scold people already ok that 2 laokuku.

Got my Q no, waited.... for 1 hr for 3 fucking people.
WAHLAO i swear i almost died inside there.

See the super inexperienced doc, got the super expensive bill den went to buy bread to nom cos i din eat anything the whole day.

Joel go buy his drink, i go buy my bread.
MISTAKE.

I swear i was on the verge of fainting already.
SO PAISEH I TAKE THE HOTDOG BREAD AND STAND THERE LIKE MORON.

Den vision blur, saw joel running over.
Lucky he came in time.

He paid, we walked back den hoseh, wanna vomit.
Swallowed back the disgusting vomit and walk back.
Distance from clinic to house is less than 10mins.
But i felt i walked for an hour.

And i nearly pengsan 2 times tamade embarassing.

Ok pointless entry.
I need go sleep the stupid medicine kicking in.
Say wont cause drowsiness but i dunno why i take liao i super drowsy.

Kthxbye.

2010-03-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

I was telling Mich how i loathe my boring life w/o any more drama mama stuff, den i got myself into the most innocent stuff ever.

We are beetching about my friend's ex bf.
And it was kinda fun, although beginning i thought was another person.

But then, please put a @ infront of our names in future, will really appreciate it like tons and tons.

If not, what's the point.
Might as well open a paperback diary and write it in.

Some girls {aka me} have major insecurity issues.
I will scan thru joel's friends list EVEN THOUGH i am the one who accepted all his friends requests.
But i am fine with them if they never cross the line like hugggging and stuff which i will bitch slap them if i ever see them.

Or maybe, a cyber bitch slap.
E.g.
/me bitchslap (insert name) and pinch (insert name) nipples till the sillicone inside all drip out.

Something lidat.

So, i was telling some friends some stuff quite sometime ago and since it is on the same topic, might as well blog about it.

"One day, if joel found himself another girl, be it two-timed or after break up, and i still die die like him, this is what i wld do."

Some people say i very jian. But you not jian to others, people will jian to you.

I will stalk the hell out of the girl, monitor their progress, bitch about her to the world, try all means to break her apart.

If cos, i wont do anything to joel. HAHAHAHHAHAHA *evil laughter*

I will curse her the entire lifetime, even in my prayers.
{I cringe at the word "prayer" cos i dont believe in praying/god/angels. If they exist, why my life still so suck.}

In a nutshell, i will break her fake boob apart.

I am not those act kelian girls who say "I wish you happiness with that girl..." and hide in your pathetic room, emo slash wrist, crying your heart/lungs/intestines out. Of cos he dont want you wad. LOOK AT YOUUUUUUU, who wants a whiney girl who knows nothing but cry and whine?

I am like repeating myself for the 1432849343598348593th time and i think the whole world knows about this but this is one of the MANY GAZILLION REASONS on WHY I HATE SHU NU.

1} Most 'Shu Nu' is ACT ONE LOR.
GUYS, if your shu nu girlfriend is eating your wallet, be sure to know her shu nu pattern is for that LV/PRADA/BALENCIAGA/FERRAGAMO and not you - short, fat, ugly, oily skin, cock eye and maybe bad sex.

C'mon you shld have known! SHE WAS ASLEEP THE WHOLE SESSION!
But then again, faking an orgasm is such easier than faking a personality.

Not say she dont love you, its just that she love your credit card more.
After she gets what she wants, she will dump you and your stack of credit card bills in a corner.
She jolly well can have orgasm with her bags.

2} Real shu nu is got grace one.

Even though how much i detest Lin Chiling, i have to admit real shu nu is lidat. It comes out from her heart but fake shu nu tries too hard.

See also know who is real and fake.

Cos SG girls are becoming more and more plastic. In the sense, their personality sibeh fake i cannot stand it anymore!!!!

Girls who have zero opinions, zero stand, zero brains shld just bang the wall and die.
If you are there to just, "orh, ok.. orh ok.." Might as well just jump down from your blk.

3} Bimbo and shu nu.
Much as i hate bimbos, i rather live with them. At least they are eye candies. Regarding their lack of brains, insert earplugs.

Shu nu ruins your sight, your ears and they will invade your brain.

4} I HATE GIRLS WHO CANT TAKE JOKES.
Dirty jokes, fun jokes and stuff lidat.

I hate it when i know this really funny sex joke and when i share with them, they are like..

*blank + disgusted look* EEEEEEE joanne why u so disgusting one!? *roll eye at me*

How boring is your life? I heard you go to bed with men for money and you telling me i am disgusting!?

I den roll eye at you lor.

5} Bimbos who give me stupid answers - forgivable.

They are called bimbos for a reason.
But shu nu who give me stupid answers are totally unforgivable.
Idk why, i just feel that.

Den you shld not be called shu nu.
You shld be called "Fake + Ugly + Stupid girl"
Short form : (Insert your name)

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God. There is so much hate on my blog as always.
WHY?

I need peace if not i cant sleep tonight again.

{Mich, i blogged. Enough excues for abscence in the next 2 months. HAHA! Tell me you love me.}

2010-02-26T12:48:00.004+08:00

Was reading Jessica's brog and was totally taken aback. Like WTF sorta thing.

News about the killer whale Tilly killing his trainer.
I presume, Tilly is a HE okay?

I have not much knowledge about Killer Whales and stuff but i believe their nature as an animal is to protect themselves, rather than killing for sake of killing.

Very disheartening to hear, tons and tons of people want Tilly dead.
WHY? Just because he was tad violent and killed his trainer?
I understand a human life is important and using "Just because" is severly unsensitive to the victim's family.

BUT, if a human life that is taken from a killer whale is so saddening, why are WE taking out on those killer whales then?

Accidents do happen. The whale is just an animal. It just do whatevr its instinct tells it to.
It doesnt think.

BUT WE DO.
We are able to think, to comprehend and to make better decisions than asking for Tilly to be put down.

I dont believe killing that animal for this incident will do anyone good.
And i believe, the trainer that was killed, wouldnt want this to happen.

So if the deceased wouldnt want this to happen, why are you guys alive, yapping on the internet about thoughtless comments for wanting the whale dead, be complaining about.

If it is to prevent future deaths, i will have to say, there are million more out there.

We, human beings, are CONSTANTLY killing whales to produce our lipsticks, their skin, their whatever for OUR OWN MATERIAL PLEASURES.

We kill innocent animals for our bags, to show off to fellow friends, to bring our status higher in this retarded society. We kill them to find pleasure in gaining recognition. We kill them to make our chopsticks finer. We kill them for fur, for skin, for tusks.

Erhem, i do understand animals are killed for their penises so you girls out there can give your man more boost. Can die without big cocks isit?

I think our lives are important. We need to treasure it.
But animal life's are important as well.

If by killing a trainer, accident or not, give you the license to kill that whale, think twice.
Human beings are by far, the most unreasonable creatures of all time.
We kill and when other animals kill us, we point all our fingers at them, calling them murderer.

Look at your branded bag and think of that animal who died for you.
Are we really still going to kill poor Tilly?

I know of a few animal abuse cases.
Why are those people just jailed and fined?
Why arent they killed?

In a nutshell, humans think themselves as the greater being.
Which is bullshit.

W/o those animals, we wld have starved or froze to death.

I myself aint much of an animal lover as compared to those out there but even so, i understand the basic logic of respecting one's existance. No one has the right to take the life of another being.
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Ps/ I understand tt Tilly wont be put down (i heard?) but i hope they wont release it to the wild too. Its like clipping a bird's wing and throw it out of your window 10 storeys high, expecting it to fly perfectly.

PPs/ Jessica's love for the whales is overwhelming. Like my love for Pinky and Baby. Heeee!

2010-02-17T23:44:00.001+08:00

Random stuff.

2010 is a killer year.
2 months into the year and im dying of suayness alr.
Aside from winning blackjack this year, everything is gg downhill.
Like major slope lor fml.

Today, had work.
Suay max.

Cos last night i talked to bf till 2am and had to wake at 730am.
My work starts at 10am luckily.
I woke at 830 and i rushed throughout my shower, makeup and stuff.. to realise i missed the bus by a few secs.
Really fml.

Den i got into mrt.
DEAD TIRED so i fell asleep/died in mrt.
And i guess i slept ugly cos when i opened my eyes, ccb got yandao infront of me, grossed out by hw i slept.
I think la, cos he gave that "hmm chiobu leh, i go see how she look like nearer.. KNN!!!!!" look.

I ALMOST MISSED MY STATION LOR.

I got up kinda groggy and strolled to my office with half opened eyes.
Everyone can see that im sleep walking.

Den...
NI NIA MA I FORGOT TO BRING MY ACCESS CARD AND TOILET KEY CCB.

You say suay or not.

;

Random stuff abt me.

1} I hate upturned collars max.
2} I hate this combo : Jeans + Slippers
3} I hate dumb people.
4} I like people who use sarcasm. Not on me thou. :P
5} I like pretty girls more than handsome boys.
6} Asian boys turn me on more than any other race. By asian, i meant Korean/Taiwanese. Not china.
7} I spend a bomb on things i like but will never use but i am unwilling to part a single cent on useful things i dont like.
8} I am tidy on certain occasions. Like... cny.
9} I am willing to give up EVERYTHING MATERIAL for my dog.
10} DENG DENG DENG DENG! I like pikachu.

2010-02-02T11:47:00.001+08:00

Ok i is lazy to brog actually. More picts on fb :D

2010-01-25T00:52:00.002+08:00

I NEED A CHANNEL TO SHOUT OUT MY HAPPINESS :}
Nothing really, nothing can describe how much i waited for this day.
The day Brad and Angie sign seperation papers.
Oohhh fuck that horny girl seriously.
She finally finally finally got the taste of her own med.
(Ok, frankly speaking, not taste of own med lah.)

Read from an article, she said she cant stand brad when he insist he is right when he is not.
I mean, DUH WHO LIKES IT?
But no one will thinks he/she is wrong wad!?
If wrong, still do for wad? Kiam pa is it?

ANYWAY ANYWAY ANYWAY,
the thing is, i believe jen is laughing somewhere in a corner.
I dont encourage the old flame to egnite but yay! Angie that sex deprived is finally kicked aside.
20hours sex! SERIOUSLY!? On the first date? WOW LOR. Whose kitten below can tahan 20 hours!? Must be gorilla already.

Ok, im still thinking about the 20hours.......

Can someone celebrate with me?
Team jen foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Who can resist her chio hair and puppy looks?

Okaaaaay, i will sleep well tonight.
Jen ftw!

2010-01-22T00:08:00.002+08:00

Veh sad.
Each time i hear Disney's songs, it reminds me of Hongkong Disneyland.
Nope, ive nt been there.
Its just an unfulfilled wish.
Bf promised me that trip someday.

Im contemplating Disney's songs on my playlist.
Thanks @Osb.
You made the emo part start again. Dont play disney songs when im with you! HAHAHAHA.

2010-01-19T21:20:00.002+08:00

Read the below post if you havent.
Sieh funny.

;

Im back from Msia.
And see my tweets to knw wad i buy.

I need to go back there again!
SO MANY PLACES TO SHOP.
Super fun!

Those going in JB, let me know!
I wanna join you!

I had immense fun and ate great food today!
We had old school chinese tea in tiny shu nu teacups.
My god, i felt like Xiaolongnu when i drank from those tenny teacups lah!
Ok not funny.

And we had the BEST fried fish ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The whole table was full of food!
Like 3plates of veggies, fatty pork meat which was kinda gross by the looks of it, soup, lala, fish, hebi egg and others.
And the bill was RM 100nia please!?
Like less than SGD$50!??!?

Anyway, im supposed to meet @osb nao.
Haven bathe and stuff. Idcare anymr.
Im changing and run down with pk to meet tt kuku alrdy :D

2010-01-19T21:01:00.003+08:00

Read this!

SEREMBAN: Malaysians, especially Muslims, must avoid being totally immersed in the internet culture, especially Facebook and Twitter, Information Communication and Culture Minister Datuk Seri Dr Rais Yatim said.
He added that facilities like internet cannot be accepted totally because it is a form of business introduced by the West and we are just users.
"We are not saying that they cannot use Facebook or Twitter but when using such facilities they must upkeep the values taught by Islam, Buddhism or Christianity to maintain our culture," he told reporters after launching a Seminar on the 1Malaysia concept today.
He also said, Malaysians who used internet services on social networking sites should be careful with what they see and hear.
"We must be strong in our beliefs and culture because the identity and image of our country depends on us." They are just selling Facebook, Twitter, L-Band and various other services, even through space, as a product but we do not do such business. We accept all this in a state of cultural shock," he said.
He chided some Malaysians who belittled those who were no savvy of the Facebook and Twitter culture.
"We should not be quick to condemn or look down on those who do not use Facebook. Newspapers are still relevant, so is Facebook, but do not be carried away with everything and disregard the old system," he said.
Rais also praised the Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission (SKMM) for its success in tracking down a student from the National Arts Culture and Heritage Academy for posting a public safety threatening comment on Facebook about the recent spate of attacks on churches while discussing the ongoing “Allah” controversy on the popular social networking website.
"Well done to SKMM for its action in nailing those who used Facebook, Twitter and SMS for the wrong reasons. As a former analyze of the law in the country, I wish to advise the people that they cannot escape from the law for their actions," he said.
Speaking of 1Malaysia, Rais said the Information Department had also conducted a survey on the people's understanding of the 1Malaysia concept and found 62 per cent of Malaysians understood the 1Malaysia concept.
He added that the government would initiate more programmes featuring the 1Malaysia concept, especially for students.
Source: http://www.mmail.com.my/content/24904-muslims-must-avoid-being-immersed-twitter-and-facebookrais

SERIOUSLY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
So those buddhist, taoist, christians and ESPECIALLY muslims shld not use twitter and fb.

So suck a dinosaur's dick man!
STONE AGE!

SERIOUSLY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
I really take my hat off malaysian ministers.
Really made my night.

First, some minister's son was caught drinking heinekein and not caned when the girl had only abit and such a big fuss was made.

Next, the son posted some obscene picts of his naked self in public (and tons of the photos omfg! But nothing much to see. I'd rather see a primary sch boy's. So much bigger tsk tsk!!!!)

Now, this.

HAHAHA malaysia is a joke on its on.

Ps/ the recent case of the allah word in christianity caused such an uproar also. Cheebai these people nothing better to do. If they value their religion so much, why go stone and burn the churches? Im anti christian but i know its wrong to burn churches! DIDNT ALLAH TEACH YOU?

PPs/ Im still laughing.

2010-01-19T08:37:00.002+08:00

Okaaaay, im not usually lidat but since @Osb and my parents are telling me that i shldnt be doing all these, im going to save draft those fucking angsty entries.

IM STILL ANGRY.
But what can i do.

I also want peace so the first step is to breathe in, smile and save those fuckin entries.
I is veh buay gum wan :(

Anyway she wont be reading these and bf also so i also no lose.
But i will be blogging abt those angry moments in my private brog.
Yes yes, i've always had a private brog.

Damn.
I feel so sad can.

Anyway, bye bad entries.
It will be for my eyes only this time round.

OHHHH, im preparing to enter malaysia nao.
SHOPPING W/O USING MY OWN MONEY!
I love parents :)

2010-01-18T09:22:00.002+08:00

*Eating Sour Cola from Softie in my Lolly*
Sieh nice.
This weekend go buy bubblegum one.
Also veh nice but dint want too many sweets.

;

People asked why i dont want to adopt.

1} Adoption for a maltese is a heng-suay thing.
I need to have the connection and HEY ITS YOU! feeling.
Scarli the maltese i adopted is ugly how?

2} Ugly.
I base my dogs on looks.
Thats how people sell their dogs.
Dont preach to me like what, we must love all dogs despite their parentage and looks.
Sorry hor, how many people will be willing to keep an ugly dog?
Kindaff cruel but truth hurts.

Dont you animal preachers start going about stuff lidat.
Puts me off.
Go rear an ugly dog all you want and add heaven points but i dont care.

3} Dogs for adoption are usually unwanted FOR A REASON.
If the previous owner cant take it (Unless for health reasons which the fucking owner is stupid to get the dog in the first place. Add on to irresponsible to his/her health!) what makes you think I can handle it?

Either they are hdb unapproved or they are mongrels and stuff.
Whaaat? My house aint a factory area.

Above is the reasons.
I dont know.
You might think im shallow.
MAYBE I AM :D

More Pk and baby's picts soon! :)

2010-01-18T00:10:00.001+08:00

First off, MY FAVOURITE DOG OF ALL TIMES! PINKY PINKY PINKY *Chants* And... BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-15T10:31:00.002+08:00

Every year i will do an adventure @ year entry.
More or less.

This year's came late cos hor, abit lazy already.

1} Walk the dog.
Pk is very deprived of walks. Her last walk was just below our house cos i needed to open the letterbox.

So, thy swear pk will get her sufficient walks if weather permits.

2} Master the holy jap lingo.
My interest and passion.
People who knw me well nuff will knw i will get crazy if i walk into a jap store and stock up like mad.

E.g. Muji, Yamakaza, Isetan @ Basement
Like mad.

3} Learn to cook exquisite things.
Not stupid things like omelette with cai por. That one can give MIL cook.
Something like Mille Feuille that sorta stuff.

4} Conquer my fear of heights.
Parasailing is the hot thing now.
I fucking swore i will never do that but im going to break it!
I hope i can do parasailing this year.

5} Get another fuckin dog.
I need it. Like REALLY need it.
LOOK AT PK. She is soooo lonely.
Shit and she is afraid of dogs.
Whaaat?

6} Rekindle old flames.
With friends i mean.
Heh, i mean qiu and i talked ytd and we planned to bring her Leslie and my Pk out for grooming end of this month.

7} I need to do volunteer work.
Better if it has smth to do with animals.
No, dogs.
I fucking am scared of cats. Like so evil!

8} Make a donation. 10c also shiok.

9} Fucking go for my yoga and sauna.
Nabeh i slap myself each time i think of this.

10} GO FOR REGULAR EXERCISES.
But tennis courts are fucking ex in the weekends.
$10/hr. SAD MAN.
Weekdays is $2/hr i think but no one is free leh.

There, 10 adventures.
More like resoulutions cos i not as gungho like last time alrdy.
Like piercing and tattoos.
Old must admit old.

And last one!

11} FUCKING BE RELIGIOUS IN PUTTING EYE CREAM AND MOISTURISER.
I slap myself hard on this.
I put essences, toners and stuff like once a week.
GREAT.

2010-01-11T10:28:00.002+08:00

Tweeting is definately a way to spam my thoughts and self obsession :}
But nothing beats good ol' blogging cos it is more or less more private.

Things turned better recently, when good luck are always hidden.
Like my finances are wayyyy better like SUDDENLY.
Cos i went to deposit pathetic $50 and then the avail bal was SUDDENLY $700+.
It was after deducting my yoga and movies.
Robinsons is really a good company.
But too bad, maybe i joined the wrong dept.
It makes me emotional and stuff but by wrong dept, it doesnt meant it is not good.
Just that the work wise, it makes me think life is slow and boring.
I need it to chop chop faster.

;

Life is really better once you know how to differentiate friends.
Like good and bad.
Although there aint any strong definition of bad and good since between them is just a fine line, i believe my heart never goes wrong.

Even if my heart does do mistakes, i believe real friends will stand by you till the very end.
And these friends will forgive me instead of trying to once and again, bring me down.

;

Anyway, i am super hungry.
Shall dig the fridge for luck!

And will blog a proper one later.
Hunger is jamming my brain.

2010-01-10T23:53:00.002+08:00

Okay, its getting a little lame. I also know lor.
But definately not play-play thing.
When we broke off, i really thought knn, end of the world.

So, we are back.
Since Friday.

Maybe since i've privatised my brog and dont intend to allow access to public YET, i think i shall be more personal.

Why we broke: We needed a time-off.

That was what we agreed on.

And to give each other a cool off session and stuff.
Not that we have been quarrelling alot.
We are those never really quarrel kind.
Cos he give in alot.
And i felt bad.

So, things dragged and reached both our limits.
And cut.
The drama ended. For a week.

Maybe he was under stress.
He had a heart scan and he was worried.
So, on Thursday after his heart scan, he called me and in the night, he said he was okay, and he is willing to get back tgt.

Idk, maybe its his heart scan that troubled him.
He once said if he have like heart prob, cancer or stuff, he wont be tgt with me.
I slapped him hard on the head.

Idk, till now idk if this is the right choice but since we've made this decision to get back, i shld cherish this chance, tone down my fucked up attitude and stuff.

OK, end of report.

Ps/ he said he wanted to save money during this "break" to bring me to some island resort to relag relag. Super touched.

2010-01-06T14:08:00.002+08:00

I am really touched and happy that SOOOO many ppl cares :(
Really lor. Thanks guys.
You know who you are.

We might be in diff schools, leading diff lives but you guys still care.
And Osb acc me to talk till 2am :(
But cos of that, i think i gained weight again cos i ate maggi mee at his house and iced milo at gekpoh. At midnight.

But i think im fine.
Hurts tokidoki but im almost there.

Now, time to get a job and work my ass out.
And lose some weight for Jesus's sake.
I think he loves skinny women.

Btw, sorry if i offend anyone but im sorta anti christian.
Not really an atheist but i just question the "God" existance. Particularly in christianity.
Ok, im soooo not going to go there.
I have tons of stuff to say.

Anyway, im going to catch some forty winks first before sending some resumes and meeting xx for dinner.

2010-01-04T10:42:00.002+08:00

I passed my jap.

Oral: Full marks
Written: A1. Not gona mention marks. Pff the eff outta you. Hiakhiak.
But if you see my tweet, i did mention thou.

Super happy.
I managed to pass w/o studying lor.
Maybe its my religious weekly chionging made up for a week's loss.

;

Im thinking whether to privatise my blog once again.
But before that, i shall go eat the prawn salad, soy sauce chicken, roasted duck.
My mummy made all those cept the roasted duck. She bought from some SIEH YUMMY PLACE.

JEALOUS NOT.
IT IS REALLY REALLY REALLY NICE LOR.

Ciao.

2010-01-03T21:19:00.001+08:00

2009-12-30T09:34:00.002+08:00

I know im being super boring by posting the below: but ... who can you blame!?

Bf's exams, bro stuck onto Lady Gaga, my friends all dunno go celebrate post xmas/pre ny at where alr.

SIEH SIAN MAX.

{Will do a PROPER ny resou later. The previous one super random nia.}

;

2009 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

Were involved in something you'll never forget?
; R/s

; Work @ Robinsons

; Xmas eve

; 1st Jap class

Tripped over a coffee table?
I sound stupid but yes. I've tripped over practically everything. Bed side, chair, toilet ramp.. Even pinky!

Dyed your hair?
4 Times. Look at my fucked up hair!

IM DYING IT IN A MONTH'S TIME AGAIN.

Came close to losing your life?
-.- No..

Did you meet any new friends this year?
Great friends i've met.

Did you hate anyone?
Hate is a harsh word. I'll stick to dislike but currently, no.

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
Regret on MY part, no. Everything i do, i dont really find regrets. I guess its the way life works.

You lose smth and you gain smth. And when you gain back smth you lost, you treasure it even more. Chimology.

Stayed single the whole year?
No.

2009: Your BIRTHDAY!

Did you have a cake?
I cant rmb but im guessing a no. I dont usually get bday cakes :(

Not because no one buys it, but because i dont see the need. Cakes shld be eaten EVERYDAY!!!

Did you have a party?
No :D

2009: All about YOU

Did you change at all this year?
Yes. Not gg to details but due to bf's influence, i can reject salesgirls promoting their makeups/stuffs alr. And i say NO to people. And i pick quarrels if they are too much. Friends included.

Were you in school?
Jap class.

Did you get good grades?
Not sure. Hopefully a YESSSSS cos my exam is this Sunday. Super stress but im more to last min memorizing. It does way better for me. I think. HEHEHEHEH

Did you have a job?
Yes

Did you drive?
Yes. Simulation cars.

Did you own a car?
:( I dont even have a liscence.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
No but going to. Super awaiting.

Did you go on any vacations?
Overseas -- no.

Would you change anything about yourself now?
My flat nose. And i will go for double eyelid surgery if i have the money. I have double eyelids but its not deep nuff. And i will go for the droopy eyelid surgery. Im guessing cos i've put on weight so the eyelids are droopy nowadays but heck, who has the time to diet when we are surrounded by so much wonderful food.

Told bf i wanna go steamboat @ Vivo soon.

And sashimi.

Bf say: "Ok, tmr we go eat all.."

Cheesepie.

2009: Wrap UP:

Was 2009 a good year?
Everyone's saying it sucked but i dont think so. I had great fun this year. I got back with old friends/people i never thought i will connect back again. I tried tons of stuff. I got alot of gadgets from bf, i have a whole fucking new range of makeups, i got more guts in dressings (cheesepie i wear super low back go out HAHAHA ok dont laugh.).

And most imptly..

I found a whole new meaning to life.

Life aint life if you use money to measure.

Im super proud of myself.

Do you think 2010 will top 2009?
Im praying hard it will be. Im sooo looking forward to a better 2010.

IN THE YEAR 2009 I CONFESS THAT I....

Kissed in the snow?
Sieh romanticccccccccc... but no.

Had your heart broken?
Once or twice but it was minor.

Done something you've regretted?
No.

Painted a picture?
If ever i paints, will that be considered a picture?

Wrote a poem?
Yes. And it was goooood. HAHAHAHAHA.

Its not soppy romance poem for bf but more of like... idk hw to put it in words but i was so proud of myself, i told my bf i wanna frame it and hang on my wall.

Ran a mile?
A mile is a little more than 1km. Wiki says so.

I did more than A MILE. I did a few times more.

Visited a foreign country?
Nahhh. Im afraid i get killed. I hate customs. I got customs-phobia.

I scared police. Ok laugh now.

Cut in a line of waiting people?
No. Never.

Told someone you were busy when you weren't?
ALWAYS.

Cooked a disastrous meal?
Nah. My bf eats it all up so idk really.

But bf said my sandwich is much better than LJS.

Seriously, i bet he regretted cos after he said tt, his lunch and dinner for consecutive few weeks was my sandwich.

Lied about how old you were?
LOL. no.

Broke a promise?
No biggie. I break them always.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA never trust a girlfriend.

Lied?
Tons. But it wasnt harmful.

Disappointed someone close?
Daddy, mummy, bf.

Hid a secret?
Yes.

Pretended to be happy?
Yeah.

Slept under the stars?
No...?

Kept your new years resolution?
Sort of.

Forgot your new years resolution?
Yes!

Met someone who changed your life?
Yes. Everyone is someone's life changer.

Pretended to be sick?
Yes x 4290

Had way too many days off school?

:(

Lost something expensive?
Choy!

Learned something new about yourself?
Everyday.

Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it?
SUPER YES. Who would find out i actually can eat tomatoes!? But i only take 7-11, Mos burger, Subway ones.

Found out who your true friends were?
I found out who werent.

Stayed up til sunrise?
Yes and it was darn tiring.

Cried over the silliest thing?
The only times i cried were the times when i wld be facing the tv/com watching dramas/anime. I wldnt cry if i quarrelled with bf. Too silly. Wad for? Idk why ppl cry over r/s. If its meant to be, its meant to be. And most quarrels are started by erhem, me. So LOL.

MAYBE I WILL CRY ONE DAY OVER R/S BUT NOT NOW :D

2009 has been great.

Had friends who were drifting away from you?
No. I was the drifted one.

But life was good. I've rekindled old flames to find out they actually do think abt me. *Super touched*

And friends. You dont need too many.

Had a high cell phone bill?
YESSSSSSSS. Super sian i haven pay. Lucky this quiz reminded me.

Spent most of your money on food?
T.T Yes........

Had a fist fight?
No.

Gotten sick?
Kindaff.

Liked more than 5 people at the same time?
Love.

Daddy, Mummy, Brother

Boyfriend, Pinky...

WL XX EC OSB KAIEN MEIMEI.

So many..

Became closer with a lot of people?
Definately.

Resolutions, from highest priority to the lowest:
Check my next entry.

2009-12-29T00:52:00.002+08:00

Obviously, i have signed up for twitter and am starting to get hooked.
But its weird cos im talking to myself.
HAHAHAHAHA.
This is ultimate self obsession lor.

I think im going to limit my blogging to tweeting alr.
Seriously, bite sizes are better to digest.
Unless i hv verbal diarrhoea that day and i will blog like how i did a few entries back -- long, lengthy and boring.

Addios!

2009-12-26T22:44:00.003+08:00

I got a new navel stud and its midnight blueeeee.
Uber chio!

And and and its only $7!
Fuck man i bought the rest at $30+.
Super kenna knocked in the wallet lor.

Im sooo gg to have the whole range of colours.
Ok, to be fair, the $7 is just 2 huge diamontes.
The boring round type.
The $30++ is got designs one and hugeeeee.

But im having infections so i needed a tiny one to get pass.
The others is too huge.
Its the size of my navel.
But super chio.

I was fixing my stud into my piercing ytd and when it was done, bf say "Wahlao chio sia."
Eh. Super elated can.

On xmas, we had our anni+xmas dinner at pizzahut.
Not really anything to shout about but the new xmas edition pizza was really nice.
Maybe cos i've always loved my bread(s) and the new one has this dip thingy which i thing is really nice.

Actually we roamed ard jp and there was really nth to eat so pizzahut was the last choice but yea, it wasnt disappointing.

;

Actually i dont understand some issues.
Can you like, ENLIGHTEN me?

1} Why must we have turkey on xmas? Ham.. etc. I think its a christian thingy? Bread i understand but why turkey. Its expensive, meat is hard.. i mean i would choose duck/chicken over turkey anytime. Oh, maybe turkey is ugly.....

2} Why must we have gift exchange? It stresses me EVERYTIME. Like "Budget $20!" or stuff like that. And we crack our skulls just to think of a proper gift. Must suit both men and women. ANDDDDDD we ALWAYS get the gift we dont like. I mean, i will buy the gift which I LIKE and heartwrenchingly(sp) wrap it up and exchange for some ugly stuff. I am always sad on christmas.

3} Why is it called a season of sharing? Maybe we shld change it to a season of forced sharing. See point number 2. I believe gift exchange is derived from this.

4} I hate christmas when it is sooo commercialised. When we were young, the lights and designs seem so big. As we grow older, it isnt that WOW anymore. BUT we are invited by those random ads like "Spend xmas spending $150 and get this $20 umbrella for free!" I mean, wtf $20 umbrella. If you want that umbrella so bad, just spend $20 to get that ugly brolly. And i hate it when ppl say "I love xmas. WHAT ARE YOU BUYING ME!?" My eyes rolled and jaws dropped faster than i can say "Whhaaaaat?"

Ok this point is totally random. But i am serious about the what-are-you-buying-me.
It shows alot about the person.
To be fair, once upon a long long long long time, laoniang was like this.
Now xmas, birthdays, cny, valentine etc etc dont really matter anymore.

;

Yuletide in singapore is just a marketer's goal for increased sales to cajole their bosses.
Maybe one day i might be able to go to Santa Claus village in Greenland to sit on Father Christmas's laps, sipping on hot chocolate whilst he tell his tales.

Ok, im joking.
Firstly, i have no money to go halfway ard the world.
Secondly, Santa Daddy's legs might break if i really sit on it.
Thirdly, i am on a diet so no hot choc.

But yeah, it beats staying in SG where all the other (some) girls think of is just Louis Vuitton dropping from the chimney. Maybe i just want a miumiu. HAHAA ok not funny.

Anyway, i still think this season is a forgettable one.
Heck, bf and i cant even remember what we did last christmas but remembered the first Valentine together.

Sidenote: Our first valentine was sucky at that point but when i think back, its kinda sweet.
We went Marina South for steamboat (I MISS ZHEN FA HUO HAI XIAN) and he gave me a rose (Super sad cos only 1. And its a rose. I dont like roses.) And the classic Rochers. Super yawn i know. But thinking back, it was really quite sweet cos we both arent working and he saved up to treat me to dinner and arcades after dinner and the rose and rochers.. I mean how long do you need to save up if you have less than $10 a day? I wouldnt understand cos my allowance at that time was $100+ a week. And he insisted to treat me when i had more money on hand.

That really touched me. Even till now.
But it was his first time taking a flower out so he kept it in his plastic bag.
Smelly cheesepie.

But he grew out of it and carried a bouquet of flowers from Raffles Place to find me. The bouquet was taller than my waist when standing ok. Super loves. Till now when i think back, wahlao super loveeeee :D

This is why i love my bf.
He dont usually say love love love but via his actions and mannerism, i can really feel it.
His advices towards certain issues, his hardworkingness(sp), his sincerity.
Ok i really WILL go on for a long time if i touch on this topic.

I mean, whose bf studies for his upcoming exams from 11pm until 5am. Sleep till 11am and studies till evening? He says he cant geddit into his skull but at least he tries.

And he chiong his work, neglecting my calls and smses which i got really pissed off but deep down i know he wants his commissions and bonuses so he can let me buy more stuffs, eat better, bring pinky out more often and so many stuff.

In a nutshell: Bf thinks of others more than himself. You wont see him buy stuff for himself. Unless once a bluemoon or i buy for him. If not, his pay goes to everyone else except himself.

He said he wanted to buy me a branded wallet recently cos he said wallets shows good impression. But when i asked him to get a new wallet cos his Braun Buffel aint some good branded stuff but its chio lar cos is i buy one. He say no need cos BB is good nuff for him. He wan buy me miumiu but i heartpain :( Moreover im not into branded stuff anymore. Maybe i will, once awhile but nahhhh.. So i got my $18 wallet which is super chio as well. I swear bf is secretly happy as well. He sayang my head and just smile. And i am super happy. That reaction i got, is super priceless. Its like, i got a burden off his back. For my imaginary miumiu wallet, he has been saving and saving, scrimping on himself and all. At least the extra money can get him something. But still he spent on my stuffs.

OK I AM ENDING THIS POST ABRUPTLY COS I IS GOING TO GO ON FOREVER AND EVER. SORRY THAT IT HAS BEEN A LENGTHLY ENTRY.

I mean, you can always close this halfway but you managed to read till this sentence which i am also quite happy.

Which means -- you either love me alot .
Or you just stalk me.

Bye stalkers!

2009-12-25T15:14:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!
What are you doing this yuletide?

I had great fun last night celebrating Xmas eve with my favourite people of all times.
Thanks for the fun.

Had bbq with my family members at my cousin's sibehxz chio condo somewhere near Farrer Park. Bf and i got lost finding the area thou. Had tons of jokes, ketchup (catch up, geddit?), fun, laughters, memories etc etc..

And we played wii until 130pm lor.
Sibeh hiong.
Play until now my arms hurt like mad.
I have always wanted a wii from the beginning and now, it only makes me wanna get it moreeeeee. Esp when we have 4 players. Uber fun. Serious. Fun rating 5/5.

And we had loads of wine.
Admit: I got a lil giddy after many glasses and my cooking mama sucks cos my concentration span was wavered by the wine.

And i got to try a super luxurious massage chair and slimming massage belt (like uzap and ukimono) and nice chocolates, the best bbq ever (my cousin said he bought the ham, ribs and sausage for $100++. And it is only a package each. SUPER LOVE!)

BAD PART : EVERYONE SAY I GAINED WEIGHT LIKE MAD. YESSSSS I KNOW, TIME TO DIET, REALLY!!!!!!!!!!

PS/ remind me to get the white wine my cousins let me try. SUPER NICE.
PPS/ remind me to save money for wii. AND the games.

Pictures can be found on FB by tonight hopefully. I hate posting pictures on blog cos i need to slowly select the pictures which is darn irritating. SERIOUSLY, they shld do a posting of pictures like faceboooooooook which really helps me alot!!

2009-12-22T13:19:00.004+08:00

Every year and every year, i have been a good girl.
Serious.
So why aint the-red-one giving me my wishes~
Since red one only give material stuffs to good girls, i shall start with mine.

; A slimming package from Marie France. The ultimate platinum (platinum sounds pro and futuristic but idk if there's smth like tt.) slimming package. I neeeeeed it so badly. Raoniang ish fatty pig alr.

; Wacom tablet so my photoshop can more accurate. Using mouse to draw eyeliners and stuff really test my patience.

; Windows 7. I knw its cheap but i lazy go harvey norman buy. And i is geek but computer noob. Idk hw to install but keep my original stuff too.

; Electronic dictionary cum translator. TOP TOP ONE.

Thats all for xmas wishes :D See, im not greedy one!
You can see im a very gadget-girl.
---
NY R.
Somehow, each year w/o resoulutions doesnt seem to be New Year.

; Stick to an admin job for as long as possible. It seems impossible now but i have to.
I NEEEEED to finish my weekend classes where retail/service jobs just cant cut some slack on weekends for me.

Like what bf & ec advised, fuck my japanese classes first then go out to fuck others. In layman's, finish my jap, get the advanced cert, find my dream job.

I want to work with alot of people. Tourguide/Translator/Copywriter. My dreamest job is to be an intern for the time being but fucking need cert for language.

Copywriter/Intern. Either one and im fucking pleased.

; Keep my attitude in check. I know i have to do this for my own good.
So stop fucking me with those "Your bf will run if you attitude him any longer."
Cos yours will, mine wont.

I wanna change is for MY own health.
For the well being of everyone but definately not for my bf.

I dont intend to change for him and dont intend him to change for me.
If you are thinking "WTF, why not!? Dont you love him!?"

Yes. Love him love him and love love love him but dont see him no up.
If ever he decides that we go our seperate ways in future, it is confirm something else.

Cos you dont know us and you have no right to say anything about us.

; Find some skills. Right now i think i can handle basic photoshop. I need more hands on. Who is willing to let me practise on their picts!?

I swear i only make you look prettier/more handsome. I hate ugly pictures so i will only make the picture more beautiful!

I told my close ones on which courses i will be taking in concurrent with my japanese classes.

I need more ART in my life.

; Usually i will say "make new friends" but i dont think i really need them any more. I mean, friends are THE fated-ones.
I cant press it.

If there is a chance to meet new friends, i definately will open up to them like how i did to my new friends. But right now, i have only that unique group of close ones.

Some ppl think same friends are boring but nope, i think same friends, closer bonds and tons more fun than wearing a mask everytime i meet other friends.

; Thou shalt take good care of fucked up skin and waistline. Thou shalt be good and drink collagen everyday. Thou shalt drink 4321 more and lesser fried stuff. FML.

; SAVE FUCKING MONEY AND FOR ONCE, DONT WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING AND TAKE A TRIP TO SOMEWHERE BEFORE BF GO ARMY.

We saved for Taiwan/Japan/Hongkong last year already.
JUST TO SPEND IT ALL WHEN WE WANNA DECIDE ALR.
Spend to whre? IDK AT ALL. Its suddenly shopping spree den POOF!

This time, a short trip will do. Depends on my weight, i see where to go.
Slim down = Beach
Still fat = Shopping. Buy a size smaller so i will diet to wear.

; Be a kinder person. When see old ppl and pregnant ppl cannot pretend to sleep. @Osborn hear this as well.

Although im proud to say 90% i really gave up my seat, 10% i didnt. I mean, im so tiredddddd...... ok i will change this.

I will donate to ppl. 10c also money. Actually 10c quite big. Can buy you a sticker to prevent more stalkers with tin cans chasing you every weekend at Orchard.

; I shall be happier with what i have. I am happy with my life but i shld be happier.

; FULFILL MY RESOLUTIONS.

How's that for my 2010's?
---
Personal wish:
I wish tomorrow's _________ will be __________.
Hope __ ________ will give me good news.
Will reveal once im done with it.
I is very pantang one.
.
LENGTHY ENTRY.
GODDAMN.

2009-12-22T13:07:00.002+08:00

Loads of pictures up at facebook!
Go view it there :D
{Actually i is lazy to post here also. Photoshop killed my brain.}

Ate my last bits of Marks and Spencer's cereal.
Wanted to pour half of leftovers but like leave that little abit buay song.
So i pour all and now i got trouble finishing it.
Plus my mouth got sore and tired from...
CHEWING DRIED SQUID FOR DAYS!

PLUS I BOUGHT 3 MORE PACKETS YTD WHEN SHOPPING WITH EC.
I heart Muji ttm.

Got sunburn although i dint really bask in sun.
Owell.

I seriously hv sleeping disorder.
I just cant sleep.

I HATE IT.

PS/ will do up a ny resou and xmas wishes and my own personal wish for this month soon.
I finish my cereal first. AND I FEEL LIKE PUKING COS MY MUM BOUGHT HL MILK AND I ONLY LIKE THE OTHER BRAND.

I is tai tai taste can?
Even my bf says so.
Even ppl who go out with me says so.
And i choose my good food.

And i only buy stuff from Japan stores aka Muji and stuffs. DAISO TOO.
PPS/ not that i wan act tai tai -- I AM BORN WITH IT :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2009-12-20T22:29:00.002+08:00

SUUUUUPER SAD :(

Was thinking of buying one of these pillows from Taka sales.

Seto no Hanayome's or Lucky Star...

BUT I ENDED UP GETTING NONE.
$20 ea.
And best part : im on a tight budget now.

If i had a job, i wld get both w/o hesistation.
But i dont want to spend bf's money on such stuff.
Bf said to get both but ..... super sad.

Seriously speaking, Lunar and Sun's not supposed to be so R21. But this pict is a super turn on for most guys sia. Imagine this is your gf........

But i still prefer the cutesy Lunar and Sun.
Hearts Lunar :D AND I HEART LUCKY STAR.

Sob, the fair is ending soon.

Shall i get either one?

Lol im thinking of some stuff.

I hate people calling Animes as cartoon or smth for children.

Go have some life.

Animes are interesting.

And portrays stuff tt real life cant.

Seriously, go suck your toes.

2009-12-20T01:02:00.002+08:00

Some girls are a sore to the eyes.

COMEON, wear a bra your size.
Dont wear a size bigger AND wear low cut cos i can see everything including yeah..... you knw.
What the fuck is wrong with the girls nowadays.

Today's the 2nd time im seeing a whole boob this month.
Seriously!!!!!!!!!!!

Fucking amusing sia.
Its like free show to all.
And she knws it and continue to flash her show.

Goodness!!!!!!

ps/ bf bought me a new red wallet.
I saved him few hundred bucks cos this only cost less than $20 and he initially wanted to buy me smth expensive.

I am so proud of myself.

And its totally chio!!!!!!!!

2009-12-19T11:49:00.001+08:00

Saturday midnoon and the skies are filled with dark clouds.
:(

And i is hungry but no one is free to cook/go down buy food.
:(

And i is lazy.
:(

Ahhhhhhh.
:(

Only happy thing : Watching Shuffle.

2009-12-18T13:05:00.003+08:00

Things i have to do immediately.

Bathe
Search for perfect dating clothes
Makeup
Tie cutesy hair
Wear cutesy shoes
Call bf for impromptu date which hopefully he agrees cos he's still sleeping
Rush out :D

I loveeeeeee one-sided date :D
Forced date.
Yeah!

SUCCESS :D

2009-12-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

Bad bad month.
Suddenly all the bad stuff just happened.

SUPER OUTRAGEOUS BREAKOUTS WHICH NEVER SEEMED TO STOP.
So bf bought me my premier facewash which did miracles to my effed up skin the last time i used. I didnt continue cos i used Fancl for awhile which did stopped the breakouts for first few weeks and then it started again. Maybe its the hormones. EFFED UP HORMONES.

SUPER OUTRAGEOUS WEIGHT GAIN WHICH NEVER SEEMED TO DECREASE.
And my hips are fucking huge like a treetrunk now and i cant fit into my previous loves anymore! Even my brand new River Island jeans i bought last month -- fuck it! And my fav cartoon tee which cost my mum $50 also im starting to outgrow it. FUCK i still have a brand new Smurf tee lor. $50!!!!!!!! Effing ex for a cotton tee lor. You thought i was good at spending unneccessary munny!

SUPER OUTRAGEOUS EYEBROWS.
SUPER OUTRAGEOUS HAIR.
SUPER OUTRAGEOUS CORNS ON EACH OF MY FEET AND IT FUCKING HURTS COS I CUT IT WITH A SCISSORS HALFWAY AND IT REALLY HURTS.

Guess what?
FML TTM.
No one can beat my effed effed effed x 583902850 life.

But then again,
i realised, with my fats growing, my 人缘 is so much better.
Serious. Look at my sec 3~sec5 life.

;

Was with Daddy the whole night ytd and i was pretty touched by what he said.
He said im the best daughter in his eyes and he said from the bottom of his heart.
I mean.. AWWWW..

Especially when im turning 21 next year.
Its not something i look forward to. I mean, its the same every year.. but to my daddy, its a whole different world.

I dont think i will understand what a parent will feel with his/her child grows up unless i become one myself. I dont know when will the time come. I mean.. my health now dont really permits any young age childbirth stuff. Anw, its really erm, kinda confidential stuff. Dont really feel like blogging it but i will share if anyone asks. Nothing serious i think. *Cross fingers*

Time for a checkup soon but fuck needles.
Dont ask me why i dare to pierce here pierce there but.. yeah, what the fuck is wrong with those people!? I mean, INJECTIONS??? Gross ttm lor!

I've thought of a birthday gift for myself alr.
Its something special to me.
Im going to buy myself..... *Secret*
Then again, i've been planning this the entire 2009.

Lengthy post.
The pain is acting up.
Fml.

2009-12-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

Its almost the time of the year where i have to crack my head and think of a few resolutions which most likely, wouldnt come true.

2009's.

1) As usual, to be good gf. Top up with extra love and sweets :D Make him diabetic for the rest of his life.
~~2) FUCKING get good results for each test i WILL be taking. (Fucking hope i can save up enough for my course first.)~~ Compensated with japanese class. Still not too bad till now.
~~3) Good daughter blah blah with fillial piety n extra understanding.~~ im not going to pretend to be humble and say i've not done my best. I did, and i did better than i thought i wld be.
4) Buy Kotoko's FULL set. Which is like sibeh expensive lor. Please pretend u didnt see point 2.
~~5) Work hard in work and stop blogging so often and never post.~~
~~6) Be a better friend. Ive been a sucky friend for the past year. SORRY GUYS~ :D Ok my bday is next month.~~ I've been a good friend IMO. I did not give chances anymore. I am more of MYSELF and less of a bitch-behind-your-back.
~~7) Stop spending $_$ on useless n useless things like my jewelleries which i nvr wear one.~~Errrrr. I am trying alr. I am halfway there.
8) NEAT & TIDY. Ive always failed in this aspect of my life.
9) Stop talking twit languages to everyone. Type proper engrish.
10) Self grooming is important. Thou shalt swear i shalt tongs my hair everyday before i go out or to lotionise my hair till its perfect.If not, thou shalt just stay at home and be a second Pinky.

I've cancelled those i've done.
PATHETICCCCCCC :(

I remember doing another to-do list somewhere in the mid-year but bah, im lazy to find.

Shall do up another resolution list and to-do list.
FYI: i hate wish list. What the fuck is wish-list when all you want is material stuff huh? No rightttt... i wish for a _____ *poof!* i got a wish fulfilled. what the fuck? Wishes are meant to be holy niniama. kuakuakua.

Ok i is getting emo alr.
Meeting loves tmr.

Kelong fishing on tues.
Bf not meeting me on wed.
I L Y

Till then.

Ps/ what is better than having your anni falling on xmas?
Twice the fun, twice the love.
Everyone's counting down to our 3yr1mth.
Ohyerrrrr.

I MISS MY BF HE GAVE ME SHOPPING MONEY JUST NOW BUT IM GOING TO SAVE IT ALR. I haven buy contact lens for 3weeks alr. :(

2009-12-11T18:03:00.002+08:00

Seriously, FML TTM!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in a rush to meet bf to go pak tor @ Orchard and i alrely belly late liao haven bathe haven make up haven decide what to wear and i die die want to download my TC's songs and knn, 2nd song nia den the bleedyyy website say "Scheduled Maintenance. Please check in 5minutes."

I seriously need to stuff a broom into the person face lol.
Of all time, today!? AND NOW??

FML FML FML FML.

PS/prays that i dont see anything nice later on.
PPS/thanks xx for the help that day. really sweet of you and equally paiseh for me.

I LOVE YOU ALL.
Cheesepie the bleddy website nia.

2009-12-10T20:41:00.002+08:00

きゃわい～やん！

My house's having a karaoke party now.
Noisy shit.

I cant even hear my song playing on my laptop.
Suck toes.

Bf's sick.
Still, he insist on finding me.
Sometimes i really need to drill some logic into him.
Not say im un-appreciative but you know, jurong to sengkang is effing far.
Everyday w/o fail he find me -- rain or shine, sick or not.
:(

Today i've cleared like 75% of my room.
Not gg to do cleaning till CNY period alr.
Cleaning sucks. My hands are dry alr.
No lotion can help.

I need my daily dose of bf power!!!!!!!
Muahhhhh!~

ps/ love my new playlist.

2009-12-10T12:53:00.002+08:00

Something's effing wrong with my youtube/mixpod.
Cheesepie, i want to scold den okay alr.
When i am good mood, it ALWAYS die on me.
What the fuck.

I from sibehxz good mood until sibehxz bad mood cos of the fucked up mixpod player.

;

Today

I is good girl cos i clean up my effing messy room until it is cleaner and neater by a little.
At least better than nothing.
And i use jif and clean now my hands are weird powdery and feels old.
Sucks ttm.

Tsk, i am so darn alone today luh.
Daddy on leave so he bring Shawn go bowling.
Laoniang is a pig, so woke up late.
:(

Daddy ask me if i want go as well, he wait for me to wash up but i still in dreamland so i said no.
Now i regret :(

I thought maybe later i can play with Pinky.
But daddy tell me to wait for her groomer to pick her up from home.
Yeah, high time she did some grooming alr.
Bring her out also paiseh. White dog become black dog cos she like to dig dustbin.
Cos recently we got alot bak gua, ham, chicken meat etc.

So tell me, who shld i talk to?
Walls, doors or tables?

I've been singing alot of weird songs and dancing loads of weird moves since i started cleaning and i felt dumb. So much for bringing up the cleaning mood.
Now after cleaning halfway, i dont feel like cleaning anymore but my room's still in a mess.
It always happens to me.

Sibeh sian.
I shall play facebook games cos they are as retarded as me.
Seriously, FML TTM.

2009-12-09T22:11:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the flood of yooootube videos.

I need these to be up so i can consolidate my MOSTEST FAVOURITE videos here so i dont have to search one by one.

BUT HOR, SO NICE LOR I THINK I SHLD SHARE WITH EVERYONE.

This is your xmas presents for this year :D

See i so good, put all nice videos together for our easy viewing!

Some ppl ask me why i learn jap kinda quick.

Actually not that i have the cells for it.

Its cos i only hear jap songs and i kinda catch their meaning cos i ALWAYS searched the meanings for those i dont know. I used to have this exercise book, i write whenever i hear a new word and i write it down and go home search dictionary and from there i make sure i learn it by heart although its impossible for me to really remember each and every thing i wrote. A tiny tip for those learning the language or any other languages.

Extra effort goes a long long way.

Although i STILL think korean is very crude but when they sing, the strong tones all become so nice.

LOVE SNSD TTM.

ps/ i wanna learn another language once i've mastered advanced level of jap. French maybe.

2009-12-09T14:05:00.001+08:00

I must get my hands off my DS!!!!!!!!!!
But KH IS LOVELOVELOVELOVE.

Awwwww.
Is there any full time gamer needed?
I can soooo be one of them!

2009-12-09T11:27:00.000+08:00

LOVELOVE!
Me loveeeeeeee KH TTM!

2009-12-09T10:12:00.001+08:00

Self motivation & planning

12~3pm : Self study. Will forget if i dont revise.
3~6pm : DO UP BLEDDY RESUME AND SEARCH FOR JOB.

Do not disturb unless in fb lol.
Laoniang is reli busy today.

2009-12-09T09:25:00.002+08:00

Pause my playlist by the sidebar and listen up to this.

Ethereal.

And when you close your eyes and listen when darkness falls -- ineffable.

2009-12-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

My "itinerary" for today.
Mad tired.

Met Xx at 10am.
Went to WWSS for awhile then went to xx house to get her stuff and went back to my house to get some stuff and we went jp to have lunch.

TIME: 11:40am
lunched + coffee bean + shopping
Until...

TIME: 5.30pm
Madness + Happiness = Priceless.

Ps/ thanks xx :) I owe u a million.

Met lingmei and i literally stoned at her shop cos i was darn tired and didnt really talked alot cos the aircon was nice, music was nice and i just wanna sleep there :(

Seriously, im being random today.

Pps/ this totally owned the time i and xx talked at starbucks many months back from 7pm till 12pm and cabbed back. Seriously, we have so much to talk about.

;

Alot ppl say i have the best bf for me.
How much he cares and all..

And sometimes i am afraid i am not good 'nuff for him.
And i get allllll emo again.

2009-12-07T20:04:00.006+08:00

I am blogging alot today.
Hehhhh :D

I erhem, didnt study alot although i was doing my jap stuff more more than freaking 3 hours.
せんせいgave us a paper to cut those grp 1 and grp 2 thing so i was busy cutting and scotchtaping it. And i tore alot of table laminate cos i stick the scotchtape onto my tabletop.

Ahhh sin. I know i shldnt have but what's the good feeling of hearing cheap tabletop laminate stuck onto your scotchtape and tearing them out?

PS/ cheap mahjong table leh. My room no space put big table alr cos i alr have my lovelove white short table for my stuff which i am thinking to turn it into a cozy corner soon.

I have to stop by ikea soon alr.
*plots evil plans to lure daddy and mummy to ikea*
I sooo need a full length mirror, a new lovelove table in same design -- only taller, a new coat of paint -- purple.

But going forward, i wont be staying here until i'm 40, so i dont think its realistic if i keep mending my room. Argh.

あやひらの　だいすき
ことこ　だいすき

；

夢みていよう
しあわせ
うれしいでしょう

あいしてる
たぶん
ずっと　ずっと

でも
しあわせですか
あんせんですか
おげんきですか

わたしわおげんきです。
しんぱいしないで。

らぶらぶ

;

My own words and own feelings thru very basic understanding of the language.
Sentence structure wont be correct cos i am typing my short feelings.
Like how a song is usually perfected without sentences, just short words.

I miss my bf.
:(

Getting emo all over again.
Its the time of the year where he always have like far far overseas stuff.
Like hongkong, new zealand.
They are thinking of going to Switzerland continent stuff.
Invited me but i ... totally never save money so i wont be going.
:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

They say the next trip they wan go taiwan, if i not wrong.
BUT HOR, I ALSO NO MONEY.
I seriously wanna go new zealand also.

He say the lambs are the cutest stuff there.
The sand ride is fun, the freshest salmon omfg. They just go into the ocean, fish a fucking salmon and sliced immediately. And the freshest oysters.
*Drools*

Ok anyway, i miss him for wad.
He is on his way here.
But i just miss him.
Over-reliant, i guess.

Bf say bringing me go Uniqlo spree cos they open the 313 den got many many sales -- i know.
Den he say next week go spree there cos now sibehxz alot ppl.
Ytd we go, knn the aunties are like snatching one lor.

And he bought me new scrunchies, new leopard pweent hairbang (spelling on purpose), my bottom lashes like finally if not i must endure mascara drips for how long more huh?

Ps/ i am sooo into tying sibehxz act cute hair now.
WHAT, i am only 20 leh!
Digress, next month 21 alr.

BUT, ok wad.
Hor hor hor.

Pps/ didnt manage to run today.
TOMORROW ~~MORNING~~ TODAY ~~{edited 8/12/2009: LOL meeting xx -- no time to run in the morning. I still want my hair T.T}~~ {Edited @ 9:34pm -- SIBEH TIRED SO I SHALL POSTPONE THIS TILL 3 DAYS LATER!} I SWEAR.
IF NOT MY HAIR DROP UNTIL LEFT NOTHING AND I WASTED MONEY BUYING HAIR ACCESSORIES.

2009-12-07T13:16:00.003+08:00

I sooo wanna F my tummy.
I hate pre-mens stuff.
CAN I DIG MY WHOLE TUMMY OUT.
i know its aint the tummy but digging the whole uterus out doesnt sound nice so i'll stick with tummy.

Homework much.
Shall kick my ass and start doing.
:/

ps/ shall do the ones せんせいgave before i do my own outsource stuff. Yea, that will keep me for 3 hrs straight!!!!!!!!!!!! *Hopefully*

pps/ shall run for 30mins after that then search for new job.

ppps/ *clap hands 3 times and pray*

pppps/ Im addicted to Pro Evo lately but nothing beats playing midnight DS. Kingdom hearts FTW :D Kingdom hearts lovelove!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ppppps/ Lovelove is my fav word now. And BOYFRIEND IS LEARNING ME AS WELL. CANNOT HOR! :P But i also learn him say 'wo yuan ni' and put the heart sign by touching all fingers together but instead of a heart sign, we do a round sign :D Cute much!

2009-12-07T00:22:00.003+08:00

Its frightening to know that some people out there are heartless and totally insane.

I just read about how a girl died in Japan.
I just read about how 4 kittens were killed in the most insane manner and then left infront of it's mother and mother licking the bloody corpse, hoping to revive the kittens.
I just read about tons of heartbreaking stuff.

And its really sad to know, all these people are not caught yet.
They are still around us, waiting for another victim.

And then i really feel sad.
And this feeling, i never had it ever before.

Hope the world will be a better place.

& i treasure the everyday with everyone.

2009-12-06T21:46:00.002+08:00

December :/
A love-hate relationship.

December has always, in my life, been a great great month, whether or not the whole year was bad or whatnot, whether people have to go suck their own balls for making my Jan~Nov life bad.

I always loved December!
But suddenly i dont love December that much this year already.

I am fucking out of job.
And am fucking lazy to search for one.
So, no income = no shopping.
Not only that, all my spendings have to limit to naught.
:/

I really have to kick my arse and start finding a new job.
I have so many commitments you know!?

My yoga, my jap, my bills, my expenses, my CNY stuff, my bday stuff.
Oh 21st bday, i'm planning on .... *secret*
Besides, i've made my stand clear to myself.
I dont want to spend alot on my bday.
Heck, best if i dont spend more than $100 :)
I dont need monetary things to make my bday a memories-filled one.

My cousin said:
"When you were 17, you hope to throw a party on your 18th.
When you are 18th, you want to be 21.
When you are 22, you look back and will say, wtf its just the 21st."

I totally agree.
Tsk tsk.

Laoniang is laoniang alr.
So old alr.
What is 21st...?

;

I have loads of pictures upupupupupupup!
And still truckloads more.

Bf and i acted a tourist for a night.
Snapping trees, lights, branches..
Posing by each christmas tree and acting stupid.
Being a tourist in Singapore is really retarded cos its either you take picture with a light-filled tree or a picture with...... another light-filled tree.

BORING @ ORCHARD

Ciaossu!
*I LOVE REBORN!!!!!!!!!!!*

2009-12-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

らきすた　SUPER　だいすき！！！！！！！
らぶ　らぶ　らぶ！

2009-12-04T12:33:00.002+08:00

Really tired despite not working.
Rahhhh, this is the bad side of sleeping in too much everyday!

Random stuff i've been doing:

} Running on my treadmill almost every other day.
} Watching tons of anime.
} Sims 3 killed a few days.
} Back and shoulder pain
} Watching dramas
} Helping bf with his projects
} Going out w/o spending much money. *SUCCESS AND I AM SO PROUD!*
} Play with dog.
} Day dream....

Thats about all.

Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIMEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Muahhhxz! I will pass her her bday present asap once i met with ling! :D:D:D
LOVE MEIMEI X 43289438294832832832842842843284284284785946357843687

2009-12-04T10:46:00.001+08:00

Im rewatching all my favvvvv anime :D

&&&&

DAISUKI DESU!!!!!!!!!
Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai lovelove!

2009-11-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

Just back from town.
Walked the whole bloody raffles place to find my bro's club.
And rushed down to Shaw to watch 2012.
I am slow, i know.
Laoniang today more hardworking, go buy online. I no like online cos have to read my 16digits which i alwayssssssss wrong.

Tsk tsk, 2012....
1 word : Overrated.

I dont know why ppl say its nice.
*Shrugs*

I thought Day aftr Tomorrow was nicer............
Oh ok, im as evil as those cb critics who said 2012 was crap.

The only thing i REALLY liked about 2012 was the shuai ge pilot who crashed into the valley and i laughed the loudest cos he was so smug.

And the daughter. And the dog.
Actually i dont really like the wife cos she was like kaopei-ing all the way.
Andddd the president's daughter was pretty chio as well.

OK IM SPEAKING IN RANDOM NOW.
I NEED TO SLEEP!

CIAOSSU!
*mimics Reborn!*

2009-11-27T22:58:00.003+08:00

Super tired even now, at 11pm when i've slept the whole afternoon away.

Last night eye big big open stare at the float for any suay fish to bite my already dead prawn.
None.
:(

Uber sadness cos my eye circles were like wtfbbq alr.
Scary how a night of no sleep can cause my eyes to swell and the undereyes to darken x2.
:( HOW MANY MASKS WILL I NEED SIOL!

Anyway, not alot of picts.
Will edit and post.
Uber sad.

So now, i going to do body scrub, face with my smacking love cure, sweet body lotion, masks and then SLEEP TILL TOMORROW AFTERNOON.

ps, life is so fragile. I want to treasure my life and my family's and my bf's and pinky's.
Had this fucking scary nightmare in the afternoon and i woke up in tears.
Crying until was like having hiccups.
And lasted for 15mins at least.

If there's ever a priority list, i will definately place family (with bf and pinky) first.
Cos when anythng happens, gucci and lv will never place their lives to help you.

Of cos, i will place my friends right next to my family.

Jaa, goodnight world.
Im going to *yawn*.... soon..

2009-11-26T09:13:00.002+08:00

Argh, its hard to type in these freakishly long nails aye.
Time for a trim!

Okayyyy.. its 915am.
And i am supposed to be otw to my yoga class today. Kuakuakua.
Shall hop in for the 2nd lesson later then.

Hopefully everyone remembers today we have a date at night.
I am soooo prepared already!

Gave up kitty lab.
Aww shucks.
But what can i do?
Totally no time at all.

Anyway, i'm feeling rather.. reflective today.
What is happiness?

Happiness to me is..
} Eating a piece (or two!) ham by itself.
} Licking of the whatever sauce left on your plate. Teehee.. (i do that at home!)
} Kicking the blankets at 10am in the morning.
} Leaving the water to run while bathing.
} Oh, hot hot water to bathe in! Heaters FTW!
} Having a nice steamboat in the middle of a big heavy rain
} Being with loved ones everywhere. Even if it is not paradise, being with them feels like it.
} Rewatching Memoirs of the Geisha every 2 days.
} Shu Uemura and Dior (2009/2010) member card came together! Together with a Bobbi Brown makeover! *smackinggg loves!*
} Digging empty wallets with bf to buy that one shirt/bag/pants. Even we dig wallets just to buy ingredients for our Aixingtang.

And if Gucci/LV/YSL/Ferragamo happens to be one of your happiness, lol at you.
These are just wants. Aint happiness.
Of course, happiness is when you all save money to buy that very bag.. for half a year, THAT is happiness.

Cos if i were to have a credit card, i wont feel happiness in buying that 4k bag cos i know it will be split and just pay slowly. It will be just oh, 4k spent, yay i gt that bag. Ok lets wait for the statement.

VS:

Save like mad hell with bf for half a year and strut into Ferragamo, grab that bag, pay for it, WOAH, total happiness.

Dont believe?
Try it.

Been there, done that.

I dont mean to judge but sometimes i dont understand why some ppl like expensive bags, expensive cars, expensive living when lol, they dont really can afford if they dont have cards.

God bless, my bf's number is 9818xxxx. Ask from me if you need a Standard Chartered loan in future.

2009-11-24T14:59:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's the 25th of November 2009.
Which means...

HAPPY 3 ANNIVERSARY!
It has been a long road.
I mean, 3 years is just a short period but i know looking back the road, i can no longer see my old self.

Good? Bad?
I dont know.

But i know, this growing up road has been loads of fun.
Tons of laughter, tons of tears.

I'm tired of words.
No amount of words can express what i've been thru.
I dont need a BIG BIG love to show my worth.
A tiny love like ours, is enough.

Happy 3 anni baby.
1 more month to xmas.

You know i love christmas..
Evryone knows.
Tis' the season to be jolly.. tralalalala, lalalala!

CHEER UP FELLOW FRIENDS.
This christmas will be different!
*wink at .... you know who you are!*

2009-11-24T10:42:00.002+08:00

Classic video i've watched since it first was on telly.

;

I've been helping bf on his project on making a website. Via Dreamweaver.
Hw the fuck i managed to produce a webby when i dont even know how to use dreamweaver a day ago.
I am a genius!

Kuakua, that aside.
Not many ppl know.
I quitted my admin job.
And i want to work in retail for awhile again.
Jobhopping now :D

Editing loads of pictures.
Tiredddd..

Very random post.
Type random.
Grammar random.
Vocab random.

Pointless entry.

2009-11-17T23:21:00.004+08:00

Just..

Someone please delete the awful memories.
Of my primary school and secondary school life.
Please only let me keep the ones i am really happy.

I only want the ones i have now.
The friends i mix with, the bf, the life.

I need to let go.
Since long long ago..

Ok i changed my mind.
Thanks xx for chatting.

Sidetrack: I AM ADDICTED ONCE AGAIN ONTO FINAL FANTASY @ DS.

I was so happy after killing Mydia and was soooo celebrating until...
her father had to fucking revive her.

YOU KNOW HOW I FELT!?
Betrayal!!!

I played for 1 whole month before i got enough levels to kill her -- by the margin!!!!!!!!!!
NOW SHE IS ALIVE AGAIN!

Goddamn!

2009-11-13T11:54:00.002+08:00

My 3rd blog entry for the day. Within a morning.
HOW BORED AM I!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY, after such a long long long time, i am already reaching the 'feeling-less' state.
No more hateful stuffs will get to me.
Kuakuakua, try harderrrrrrr!

I MAY be the one sided party but yeah..

I will be known as happy joanne next time instead of petty joanne.
{STARES AT EC}

Well then, time to either bathe/clear my room.
But the undone bed is damn inviting.
Shall i lie awhile until 12+ then start?

Ahhh.. procrastination..
Such a sin.

2009-11-13T09:13:00.002+08:00

& lastly, my w/o makeup kuku face, bfs act cute sausage lips and pinky trying to get away from camera!

2009-11-13T09:10:00.002+08:00

Friday. When the on-leave status is coming to an end, then i realised that i actually need more of it.

Friday the 13th.
Hopefully nothing will go wrong for me.
I am staying put at home.

Hooked onto ps when i seriously have nothing to do.
So sorry i spammed fb with my hideous pictures that you love so much!
{Okok, denial denial!}

Gagagaga.
Shall post the pictures up later.
My blog is so colourless!

2009-11-12T15:37:00.003+08:00

I am so tired.
I totally have nothing to do.
Damn!

Clearing my room.
Photoshopping a few pictures.
Washing the dishes.
Laze around.
Watch Panda show with bro.
Cook rice for tonight's fried rice.
Ate Marks & Spencer berries and cherries cornflakes.

I AM SO DEAD LA.
NO LIFE.

Some things im going to do later on:

Pluck eyebrow. Wanted to wax it but no time for it to fully grown.
Do full make up for Vince's wedding on Sunday.
Try on dresses to see which one fits.
Photoshop more pictures.

TOTALLY LIFELESS.
BF GOT HIS KUKUJIAO PROJECT I AM SO LONELY!!!!!!!!
*pats pinky*

Bye!

2009-11-11T00:25:00.002+08:00

I won my bf in pool today :}
Usually he's the pro.
But i hurt my palm alr. Im having sores and blisters.
New que stick i guess.
O well, at least i got myself a reward which bf say he wanna buy for me but i dunno wad will he buy.

I hope its something cheap.
I will get angry if he buy more than $50.

I mean it.

;

On leave for 3 days.
Super duper long weekend.

Will be accompanying bf to his medical checkup tmr.
After tt mightttt be gg to do a "fitting" for Vince's wedding this sunday.
I totally have no idea for my makeup.
I even need my bf to buy my eyeshadows for me!

Cos i dont wan to don the same old makeup.
Same colours, same pattern same old stuffs.
So we got some colours i already have but different undertones.
O well. Money $_$

And nowadays i am buying some falsies but i dont wear them.
I only wear them for photo taking and i dont use glue lol.
I just use their self ahesive stuff and just stick.
Den take pict for an hour and take out again.
So fun.

Ok im tired.
Old alr.
And cranky.

Good night world.
Live a happier tomorrow!

2009-11-10T00:18:00.002+08:00

Once and for all, i say this.
I. Photoshop. My. Pictures.

After countless nights of no-eye-shut, i am already so worn out.
Furthurmore, i dont don thick make ups everyday!
So, i dont want to see me in real life looking so sallow and tired with bad skin and all in the net as well.
I dont see any harm done.

Firstly,
I dont use my "after" pictures to go and bluff guys money.
I dont use them to make them think, its my look.
I only add friends in facebook and i do post my sibehzx ugly photos side by side wad.

Secondly,
I never ever once denied the photos arent untouched!
I openly and proudly say its photoshopped.
If you arent happy, lol why are you still on my page?

Thirdly,
I take photoshop as a form of stage where every improvement counts.
After posting a few new photos, i got a massive reaction.
Up till now, those commented are those good ones. Thank you very much!
But i can prolly imagine those ccb people hiding behind their screens and bitching over MSN about my duh, new photos.
HELLO!? I have a whole truckload of photoshopped pictures in my laptop.
You need me to post them up to quench your thirst of bringing people down?

Fourth,
I want to share pretty pictures. {Ok some will digress, PRETTY!? Refer to my previous entry dumbnuts.}
Seriously, if you cant stand me looking prettier than my usual seft online, then too bad for you.
Dont tell me you all dont photoshop please.
Dont change colour settings, dont add a lil lame shit things like blog url, name, vital stats or wadever credits thing?
Yea yea, never change the look wad. Sama sama leh.

Fifth,
Why dont you all go to newspaper stands, point to FHM and say
"this girl is fucking disgusting cos she photoshop and airbrush her never ending legs!"
Oh, legs are borned? You know you can extend your short legs to Lin Chi-ling's via PS?
Girls are all like that. Of cos, me included.
You cant stand your bf staring at half naked girls and stuff.
You have no one to blame. Where is your control for them then?
If you can control, good for you.
If you cant control their straying eyes, then take it.
{Tell me, why am i on this topic!?}

Come on!
Its 2009 going on 2010.
Why are you living in era 1999!?
Is it more fun being so slow minded?

Seriously, i gave it serious thought before i decided to post this aimless entry.
I dont see why am i explaining things i've done which i dont think i'm in the wrong.
Mouth is yours, say what you like.
Rotten words definately suit your rotten mouth.

;

Monday arrives sooo fast.
Time cant slow down nor speed up.
I feel sad. I feel relunctant.
But i wont regret!

Sorry its such a wordy entry.
I am feeling alot recently.
Alot of whys, alot of ifs.

Why are they like that?
Why cant they stop?
I found answers to these myself.
Deep down i know, they wont stop until i die.
Heck, if i die, they will also talk.

So, im trying to live a life to the fullest.
I am learning so many new things everyday.
Might not be big stuff but many little things can make a history & impact on others.

;

ps/ just so you know, my bf have no objections. In fact, he is super supportive. Shant tell you how but yea, its another big and expensive step towards one of my dream.

Screw you bitches.
I feel hatred.
WAKAKAKAKAKA.

pps/ just came back from meeting osb. Was a darn quick one but yea, i will meet him again this week. I smell something sour. Heck, whats wrong with me meeting my prisch+secsch+bmc bestfriend...??

ppps/ i want 26th/27th nov to come soon.

2009-11-08T19:36:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the word gets around and COINCIDENTLY {or not}, gets to my ear.

I dont understand some people.

If you people claim to hate me so much,
why do you constantly check my blog?
why do you constantly check my fb?
Why dont you just delete me from it?

Thanks for the hate.
I appreciate it loads.
No, i dont hate anyone right now.
If you hate me, it means you care.

Keep the hates coming!
Thanks for the attention.

;

Anyway, i dont think anyone should believe my recent fb photo.
ROFL, it was photoshopped with mass liners and such.
{Those red lips was real though.}

I am trying to improve my photoshop skills i lost a few years ago due to lack of practice.
And i am trying to be ehem, more artistic.
Cos i have always always always admired people who can draw.
Aka Osb and everyone i know who can draw.

Cos i believe art is different in everyone's eyes so no one has the right to judge the artwork of one another.
I used to judge, i used to critic so badly.
Everyone fell into my bad words.
I apologise.

I will try not to judge.
I will try not to critic.
I will take a step back, look at the whole picture again and give them their worth of smiles.

Cos i know the feeling of lack of encouragements.
I have lived a life of criticism.
I do not want others who are out there to live the same life i had, by me.

I know i sound like a loser.
I know i sound like a preacher.
But anyhow, i am living a life my own.

Still i stand my ground.
Thanks for the criticism.
It made me what i am today.

2009-11-07T22:31:00.002+08:00

I did not deliberatedly try to slim down so much as last time but my face slimmed down.
I totally hate it.

I hate it cos the fats from my face went to my tummy and hips.
I hate it cos i no longer look chubby.
I hate it cos my boyfriend starts to make comments like "I dont like your cheeks alr. Where are your muah chees?"

I hate it.
I fucking hate my cheeks now.
GROW BACK PLEASE!
I swear i wont photoshop you away unless necessary.

Even my recent pictures, i dont need to photoshop my cheeks anymore.
Hais. When i've lost it, then i learn to treasure it.

I know i am weird. Everyone wants a slimcut face.
Not me.

2009-11-04T14:30:00.001+08:00

I have this weird obsession with myself lately.
Is it good or bad?

;

I need someone to hug.
I need to share my hugs.
Who want my hugssss!?
:D

Anyway, i am in a very pleasant mood today.
Since morning when i pop in fb.
Thanks xx.

Fishing soon.
Meetups soon.
YAY

2009-11-03T12:06:00.002+08:00

Happy, shalalala.
Everybody should be happy, shalalalala.

Y

Tuesday today.
Wednesday tomorrow.
Sian, still got 4 days till i stop for this week.

I want Friday to come fasterrrrr.
Saturday to be sloowwwww.
Sunday to be slowwwwwwwww.

I love my Sundays.
I love my class.

2009-11-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

I told you i am a whore.
Freaking 300+++++ pictures within 2 days.
Still not my record lol. I once did a 400+ in a day.
Fuck shit i am soooo in love with myself.

Actually the fun part is playing with settings and see it react to diff surroundings.
And i fucking set those settings to beauty mode.
I am such a genius!

Actually i am more on emphasizing my lashes.
I know its weird and sounds sibeh haolian but yeah, i am. So!?

And i didnt photoshop a single picture.
So sorry if i scared you with my uber gross eyebags and dark circles.
And those permanent acne scars. They cant seem to go away.
I sooo wanna chop my fingers everytime i see those scars but if i chop my fingers off, i cannot take chio pictures anymore... T.T

SO CHIO RIGHT. My bf lovessss this picture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahhhh~ cant life get any better than this?

Pssst, all these are less than 1% of my total madness.

MADDDDNESSSS and my camera scolded me.

"Memory full!"

Tsk tsk time to get a 8gb soon.

2009-11-01T23:12:00.006+08:00

This is supposed to be a bandwidth eating post but i decided its taking foreverrr to load those pictures so well, i shall blog the other half the next time.

Daddy brought us {Mummy, Shawn, Boyfriend & I} to Miramar Hotel to have sibehzx yummy sashimi. I swear there is heavenly.
{Dont go for the service though. Dont know is it cos tt day was their 9th birthday and loads of customers and gave their service stars some slack but .. well, service sucked tt day.}

Since it was their bday, they had this special menu which no normal days have. Thanks daddy! Me loveee the food. This is less than a quarter cos we were busy eating.

OHHHHHH i loveeee the bbq prawns. JUMBO PRAWNS *smacks lips*
{Picts not in order!}

Salmon obviously. With stingy strings of raw dou miao. My fav!

Escargots for appetiser. Sibehxz yummy. Thumbs up! Random pict of daddy and shawn.

My beautiful green tea cup. Almost wanted to bring it home.

Some decors which i really will bring home if my bag was big nuff.

Random pict of chopsticks. We were s'pposed to take off our footwear. Shoeless FTW!!!!!!!!!! I had a really hard time climbing out thou. Short skirt :/

Horrigible stuff i dont know why ppl pay so much money for it. I swore off this.

This isnt too bad but i tried once at Jp's. U see my face got drunk immediately.

Some inside joke. Tsktsk, you will never wanna know wad is beneath this "grave". Kudos to shawn, bf and me.

The place in question?

This.

IKOI! FTW!Fantastic eyelash that day. Nope, no falsies, no photoshop. I'm having fantastic lashes nowadays hiakhiak.

Dont believe? Scroll down or wait for next entry.

The boyfriend. The always prepared to go for a wedding dinner bf. I love neat dressed guys. Near perfect lashes for today's class.

Class?

JAPANESE CLASSSSSSSSS.

I had great fun today.

Although it really was basics {Read: Boringgggg} but i really had fun.

I can read and write with ease alr.

Not kua zhang! I really can!

My language skills are from my mummy.

My name :} My sibeh funny jap teacher wrote it for all of us.

Sibehxz nice the handwriting.

This is my written words.

Very basic ones but yeah, i am emphasizing the point that my jap writing is so much chioer than my chinese ones.

{i deleted the photo for it cos argh, i go type katakana for wad! HIRAGANAAAA!}

Good night world.

Say good night to me via my act cute face.

PS: I wore this to school today and it was fucking mad hot.

As in, temperature..... tsk tsk!

2009-10-31T09:57:00.003+08:00

I AM SUCH A WHORE!
Camwhore, that is :)

Took like a truckloads of zilian pictures that even the bf cant stand it.
I max my batt for ytd cos its bf's bday so maybe wanna take some stills but in the end i burned my batt. And not a single bf shot.

KUAKUAKUA.

10am on a beautiful sat.
God bless for last night's rain.
/me love midnight showers + thunder + lightning.

ANW;
everyone's still asleep.
How boring.

Heading to dunno wad hotel for ultimate sashimi buffet today.
Kudos to my dad! Hiakhiak.
Now i must headache to wad i shld wear.
I've overgrown myself so none of my pretty stuffs can be worn.
Owell..

OOOOHHHHH,
Lets all cheers for me.
Tmr is my jap class.
Somehow i am very afraid.
I have first-day-in-sch phobia.
I hate self-introduction.
I hate ice-breaking-games.
I hate first day of school.

I hate feeling like an idiot.
I hate making new friends but i wan new friends.

Duh i am such an idiot.

Packed weekends.
I am going to enjoy, i hope.

Random facts abt me:
1} I HATE upturned collars esp guys with short and fudgy necks. How do i emphasize this point furthur??

2} I cannot stand guys who go out wearing jeans and slippers. I cant even stand guys going out in slippers. Unless of cos, going downstairs is a different thing all together.

3} I love animals but i hate cats.

4} I am a water tank. FYI: Drinking excessive water only makes you go toilet more often, not cause water retention nubs.

5} Salt intake is skyhigh. FYI: THIS, is where my water retention comes from. Tsktsk.

6} I hate ppl telling me "Why u drink so much water!?? No wonder "shui zhong"." LOL AT THEM.

Kthxbye world.
I love you guys as much as i love myself.

2009-10-29T22:48:00.008+08:00

{65 mins to 30th October. Once it hits...................................}

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BBBBBBBBBBBBBBAAAAABBBBBBBBBBBBBYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Welcome to the 18th chapter of your life.
Hope you liked the things i got for you.
{Tsk tsk, to those sibehxz kaopeiextraknn ppl, dying to knw wad i got so you can start *roll eye* comparing again?}

Anyway & anyhow,
this is the official 2nd bday i've celebrated for you.
Thanks for letting me be by your side each time.

Thanks for being such a mature guy at this age.
I honestly believe: AGE IS JUST A NUMBER.
Somehow, you, my friends and i have this thing in common.

We dont celebrate birthdays.
I've not celebrated since 2 years ago.
And i am not intending to celebrate my 21st.
21st is overrated.

Cos i believe, no one should celebrate their birthdays once a year.
Life should be celebrated everyday.
{Although i still insist on my N____ D___ or S___ E__.}

Thanks for taking care of yourself till this age.
Thanks for letting me step into your life.
Thanks for stepping into mine as well.

The most beautiful memories are never hung. They are often well kept inside everyone's hearts.
Friendship shld never be spoken. They shld be given and felt.
Love shld never be dirtied. Only love without the ulterior motives (e.g. $!) will last.

I believe so.

And my bf understands me. He knows me so i wldnt care less if anyone out there, points their short stumpy fingers at me and says im for his money.

I wldnt care less if anyone says i am not compatible with him cos he once said
"Whether other people thinks im ugly or chio, perfect or not, he wont care cos to him, i am the only perfect one for him."

Suck on that, bitch.

OKAYYYY, back to topic.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN, my weirdo bf!
You know i love you.

Thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss much!

XOXO

2009-10-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

The above picture is for XX cos i am pretty sure she lovessss such colourful things.
{Heh and candy apples are my fav! Had it once a long time ago and i cant find anything nicer than that!}

Congrats hunny.
I am so proud of you.
:} Do inform me when it will be published.
Be sure to give me a copy!

;

That aside, i also wanna congrats my zui zui zui ai rabbitling.
She knows why.
I am belly happy + excited.

This week, is a miracle week.
Nothing more i can ask for.
Just 3rd day into this week and so many nice happy things happen to me.
I hope this continues to the end of the week.
{PSST: THIS SUNDAY IS MY 1ST JAP LESSON OMFG i am thiiissssssssssssssssssssss excited!}

;

I know i cant be doing this cos of my terrible horrigible spendings but i am currently waiting for the right time to purchase my ____.

Bf say dun buy this month.
Hmph.
I am so angry.
Cos i spend all my money and his money away alr so i think this month i also cant buy.
I cant spend money like that anymore!

WAKE UP MISS JOANNNNNE YOU ARE SO OLD ALR STOP SPENDING MONEY ON STUFF THAT MAKE YOU FATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
Ok, i shall stop eating so much.

Heh but i just pm xx saying we shld meet for dinner/lunch soon for a lil celebration :P
Ok, this is the last time i will be eating then.
:\

2009-10-27T22:41:00.001+08:00

Y

Cooking Mama 3 (!). I think i'm suaku but i was stuck at Gardening Mama.

AZN Dreamers. Loved them since 100 mil years ago.

;

Check my new playlist out.

Tsk tsk.

I didnt know my bf was sucha weirdo.
He knows almost all MJ's songs.
So, the song haven even played for 5secs, he can knw wad song it is alr.
Fucking scary. I didnt knw he had this side of him until MJ died and everywhere was his song and he cld guess and sing the song w/o the lyrics wrong.

: My bf is a silent MJ siao.

2009-10-26T23:28:00.003+08:00

Babies; they are a miracle.
A god given chance to sculpt someone's life.
Awaiting ............ :D

Officially took my weight today.
GOD DAMN I REALLY GAINED 10 KGS WITHIN 1 YR 6 MONTHS.
I neeeeed to lose weight to my pre-office ~~daze~~ days!

Goddddd and where the heeeelll is my inspiration btw?

People need to know.
People need to learn.
What they should know and what they should learn.

Basic respect.
Basic love.
Basic humility.
Basic faith.
Basic pride.

Am i losing those?
I question myself everyday.

Gaining bit by bit.
I know i am there, but not quite there.

Give me a chance.
A chance too many, a chance too little.

Good night world, i need to crashhhh.
Although i've been half asleep my entire life.
:P NIGHTS!

2009-10-26T00:20:00.002+08:00

For Ferynn.
Wakakaka, im sorry but im totally like having bad fats day like everyday.
Bad hair days like everyday!

This is a photo of last year wakakaka.
I need a perm sooooon :)

I . NEED . INSPIRATION . FOR . WADEVER . DESIGN . I . AM . UP . TO .

God. Where are my brain cells.

2009-10-25T12:47:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 2 YEARS 11 MONTHS Y

We went to ECP ytd only to find out Mr Sun has alrdy went home.
Awww shucks.
*Stares at baby.........

So, after a butt breaking mrt ride from Jurong to Bedok, i cannot tahan anymore.
Took cab to ECP and dined at HK Cafe.
Wanted to eat at Seafood Cntre but i wasnt feeling well so bf said not to eat tooo many seafood.
Next time then.

This cafe, die die weekends dont go.
The crowd is so fucking noisy, i shouted at them too shut up and no one cld hear me.
*^&(*&)(*&(&^

The food was soooo disappointing.
Been there like a few months back?
The food was so much better.
The only thing nice was the soup i ordered.
Even bf's sharkfin {Rated best buy somemore!} taste worse than Sengkang's $2 sharkfin.

And i got a splitting headache due to the noise.
T.T there goes my 2yrs11months, i thought.

So we walked ard, ... sub-consiously to seafood centre cos i wanna order some gong gong back :P

Walked and walked.
And we reached seafood centre so fast.
I thought mayyyybe can chat more but heck!

OOOOOHHHHH,
and there has great shopping if you <3>

They have this stall on weekends selling stuffs.

And sooooo cheap.

I bought a blazer and a long tee for only $28 :P

Such a steal!

Wakakaka.

And we cabbed home.

Somehow, i think i know what the song "More than Words" meant.

Thanks bf for showing me that.

ily <3

2009-10-24T11:37:00.002+08:00

Uber pissed last night cos of itchy fingers, the whole widgets went haywired.
Tried to do a exact replica of my previous one cos i really loveeee it.
But i am kinda pissed off alr so this is at my current state.

Kinda suckish.
Hate it but i love my new playlist.
My ex-loves and all.

Did anyone know i actually <3 Elvis presley!?
My only regret is not to be born a dozen years earlier so i can bask in his era.

Ooooh, and to update on us,
bf and i, we both are recovering from a quarrel which lasted a few days.
Kinda better sun after rain.
Now its like, fwah, we are soooo into each other again.

Our plan for today: We'll be meeting in Bedok and going down East Coast Park for some old-school dates.

Planning to catch the sunset.
If we managed to, it will be our first.
I know, we are damn lag but we've spent too much time in malls and donating to them, i thought maybe we should get some air.

Anyway, i bet i wont be able to post this tonight or tomorrow.

Happy 2 years 11 months :)
I'll look at you at this point of time and think to myself, i'll love you like i did 3 years ago. & more.

2009-10-15T14:50:00.001+08:00

900th!

From MSN.Com

Aquarius (January 20 - February 17)

You're thinking about taking a class or educational step to improve your skills and career prospects.

Eh. So true.

2009-10-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

899th Post.

Suddenly, i prefer to blog in my PBD.
{Tsk, private diary.}

So, general and wadever shiets will be posted here but maybe a lil more personal ones will go there :D

Took this quiz from FB and thought it was rather spot on.
Ok, i know the rest of the quiz group Aqua babies as weird and eccentric stuff.. but this is really THE deal.

I would bold those i presume its true.

Aquarius Strength Keywords:
- Witty
- Clever
- Humanitarian {LOL}
- Inventive
- Original

Aquarius Weakness Keywords: {like TOTALLY!!!!!!}
- Stubborn
- Unemotional
- Sarcastic
- Rebellious
- Aloof

Aquarius and Independence:
Aquarius personality is very independent, any attempt to hold them down or restrict them will cause them, to flee.
They need to be free to be on their own.
Independence is not just desired by Aquarius, it is essential to their well being.

Aquarius and Friendship:
Beneath the detached, unemotional exterior lies a kind hearted friend that will go out of their way to help another.
They love to make people laugh and cheer people up and it makes them feel good to make others feel good.
They do not expect anything in return for this could put a damper on their freedom, they live with no strings attached.
They are very unconventional and always full of excitement, an Aquarius friend always makes life fun.
They might offer you a spontaneous last minute camping trip with no supplies prepared, if you decide to go along, you will have a weekend to remember forever!

Aquarius and Business:
Aquarius likes to do something useful with their lives, mixing that with their amazing way with people, they make excellent politicians and social workers/psychologists.
They are progressive thinkers and are great at forming new ideologies and theories, any type of research is very suited to Aquarius.
Aquarius one downfall in the business world is the attention to detail, they like the grand ideas and massive plans and can make them happen, but the mundane day to day repetitive details causes them to procrastinate.
Aquarius needs a secretary. {Read this. Any takers?}

Aquarius and Temperament:
Aquarius tend to be rebels just for the sake of having their own way.
Their stubbornness sometimes causes their failure, they will continue to do something their way even though others have proved it is wrong, they are very smart people and know it is wrong but they will continue just because it is their way, they are very fixed in opinion and stubborn when confronted.
Despite their stubbornness and fixed opinion, they will never impose their ideas on others, they have respect for everybody's differences.

Aquarius Deep Inside:
Aquarius are in search of wisdom, they are very observant and they can gather their information objectively because emotions do not get in the way, they seem to be above emotions altogether and when they speak, they speak the truth.
Sometimes it may be shocking or painful because of their disregard for the feelings of others, but they intend no harm, they call it like they see it and do not emotions cloud their judgment, they are very detached from emotion.
It is not that Aquarius are unemotional, they just to not trust their emotions so they incorporate them into their ideas of who they are.
As a result, if someone does not agree with their ideas, Aquarius sometimes takes it personally, not as much as other zodiac signs however as Aquarius is intellect driven and not emotionally driven.
Sometimes they wonder if there is something in life that they are missing because they do not feel like other people feel.
This does not necessarily prevent them from being involved in intimate relationships, they are capable of this but the person on the other end will always notice an air of detachment from Aquarius.
Aquarius wonders 'why?' so much that they can question their existence.
They wonder if what they are doing is useful, they want other people to notice them and appreciate them, this is caused by underlying insecurities that wonder if other people accept them for who they are but these are never brought to the surface because to an Aquarius, it does not matter that much because they know that they are special.

Aquarius in a Nutshell:
Aquarius is the sign of visionaries, unconventionality and intellectual independence.
Aquarius are the people who deviate from the crowd and go their own way.
They are always after intellectual stimulation, constantly discovering something new, forming new opinions and stubbornly traveling their way regardless of what other people think.
Aquarius are filled with paradoxes, they are interested in the opposite ends of the spectrum, they like to be alone yet are social butterflies, they like to experience both sides and see both opinions as they formulate new ideas with their forward thinking, active mind.
Aquarius have a 'live and let live' policy where everyone is free to be themselves, an Aquarius never judges others because as human beings, we are all equal and entitled to our own opinions.
They are verbally skilled and very witty, they observe people and learn how to interact with others through observation.
They can be masters of manipulation justifying anything they do or think.
As a result, they can deal with any type of personality and adapt to any situation.
They welcome change because boredom is their enemy.
Anything new is an opportunity to Aquarius.
Aquarius can act as an expert on any topic, they are very good at inflating their own importance, they feel it is deserved because their eccentricity makes them unique.
Conventional people beware, Aquarius likes to shock and deviate from the norm, this is how they live.
Aquarius is known to pick at anyone they find weak or dull-minded.
It is simply an easy target for verbal exercise for them, no harm is meant but it might be taken from the other person.
Deep inside, Aquarius would never intentionally hurt anyone, they have respect for every human, even thought this might not seem apparent to the more emotional types.

In a nutshell, i am a no-feeling, stubborn, mad, crazy but ten times more fun than anyone ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I totally disagree about the witty part though. If im smart, heck i wouldnt be sitting in an office doing mundane jobs alr.

XOXO

2009-10-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

Uber excitedness.
A lil bit of nervous, a lil timid, a lil anticipation, a lil afraid.
But everything will be gone by 1 Nov.

Slowly improving, i've learnt how to write/read basic Japanese.
Of cos not those sibuaay cheem ones like 1 chunk of paragraph but i read simple words and signs.

After my jap course till advanced 2, i might be starting another language course or 1 skill course.
Of cos, i've alr discussed with baby and he's totally supporting me.
I still feel awkward speaking japanese with people i dont know but i think i will be fine.

"Any worser situation, i've been through. Be proud im learning new things"

Anyway, i've enrolled in Bunka Language.
Totally got lost cos i cldnt find the reception area. The whole level is their's.

I dont condemn people trying to be on par with me but at least, dont jack yourself :)

I thought maybe you should get your English right, your grammar, where a 'S' should be placed and certain spellings before embarking onto a new page.

Of course, languages can never be perfect. Just like my English. It was never good but at least im safe to say, my basic's there.

Next Monday will be another day i will be anticipating.
Tomorrow's my ARGH, advanced ppt class.
Sureeeeee sleeeeeep, so catch me at fb or this space.

Till then!

XOXO

2009-10-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

I WANT THISSSSSSSS.

ANY KIND SOUL!?

2009-10-06T00:00:00.002+08:00

YOSHI!

I had quite a few quotable quotes i've sort of invented from work but when im home, POOF its all gone.

Maybe this is the only one left in my mind.

Happiness should be derived from creating moments and memories, not by crippling the wallet.

This, i stood by for past 1 year.

No branded, no luxe, no more fine dining which is good for my fats.
I wanna stand by this quote for the rest of my life, hopefully.

;

Before i rest for the night,

i believe and will stand firm:

Self pitying doesnt get anyone, anywhere.

ps: navel hurts more than it just got pierced. I fucking lost my stud and im using my sibeh expensive but thicker stud and it hurts so baddddddd.

{Read: Heart also pain, i actually dint wanna put on tt sibeh expensive one.}

WHY SIBEH EXPENSIVE?
Cos i kenna conned. AGAIN AND AGAIN.

2009-10-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

Wants to feel emo but i cant.
Wants to hate but i cant.
Wants to get angry but i cant.
Wants to give up but i cant.
Wants to enjoy life but i cant.

I'm waiting ...................................................

PS/ i am sooooo waiting for Sat to arrive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-28T15:31:00.002+08:00

Guess i'm a lil late..

Male remains have been discovered on Saturday morning in the mountains of Gunma Prefecture, the same general area where Crayon Shin-chan creator Yoshito Usui was reportedly going hiking on September 11 when he went missing.

Authorities have not identified the remains yet, but they told the TBS television station that the clothing on the remains resemble those of Usui.
According to Usui's family, he said he was "going hiking for a day in Gunma Prefecture" on the morning of September 11.
His mobile phone was last detected in the vicinity of Karuizawa, a town about 100 kilometers (about 60 miles) northwest of his Kasukabe home, on Monday.

Karuizawa is located in the mountainous eastern part of Nagano Prefecture, near the border of the equally mountainous Gunma Prefecture.

In particular, Usui is said to have expressed his intent to climb the Arafune mountain, which towers 1,422 meters (4,665 feet) high at the border between Nagano and Gunma Prefectures.

Authorities have been searching this area since September 12.At 11:00 a.m. on Saturday, the authorities received a report from a climber that "there are remains below a rocky ledge."

R.I.P
Usui Yoshito

Will miss new updates on Crayon Shin-Chan :(

Links: http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/news/2009-09-19/male-remains-found-in-gunma-prefecture-mountains

2009-09-28T15:21:00.000+08:00

Bubbi found herself a new fan... miles and miles away from Ireland :D

ME!

2009-09-23T12:47:00.002+08:00

Just hanged up the phone with baby.
{Abit weird to call him baby online thou.}

I'm in my 2nd day of my course.
I swear this is the most boliao 2 days of my lifeeeee.

Best part, i next week have 2 more days!!!!!!!

Saveeee meeee..

ps, i realllyyyy have to put my mind and cash down to study my jap lessons alr.
No lingo, no trip!
{Thats my motto!}

2009-09-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

MAJOR OBSESSION WITH YOUTUBE AND DVDS.
Bought Chinese Paladin 1, 3 and Return of the Condor Heroes liuyifei version, Se Diao Ying Xiong Zhuan, Wo De Yi Wan Mian Bao and some i forgot wad. Cant remember wad i've watched.

SOMEONE TAKE ME OUT OF THE MADNESS.
Hu ge <3
Ariel <3
Liu Yi Fei <3
Zhen Yuan Chang <3

ps/ i know some are OLDDDDD shows from 2003. BUT CANNOT MEH? I watched ALL before alrdy but i'm rewatching x3 x4 only!

2009-09-22T14:28:00.002+08:00

I swear this is the most most most boliao day of my life!!!!! Why am I at this ..... Class!?

2009-09-20T11:44:00.000+08:00

888th entry for my lovehoneybeecupcakesweetiepiehearts.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HU GE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AWWWW, me love love love belly belly much!

*sings and twirl ard!*

HAAAAAAAAAAAPPY BDAY!
*throws confetti*

2009-09-17T23:46:00.001+08:00

All hail the .. erhem, world's most handsome ..

Wahlao i cant believe i called him the world most handsome.
If he is the world most handsome, there wont be any ugly people alr.

God bless this lost soul..

2009-09-12T18:16:00.001+08:00

I hate to recommend.
but..

Fancl's JP outlet has the freakiest service.
In a good way.

I'm definately going back for more.
DEFINATELY!

2009-08-29T16:08:00.002+08:00

I think i'm the world's most indecisive person.

First, i spent almost 15mins deciding whether to get Yuna Ito or Angela Aki's CD.
Which i finally got Yuna Ito with a heavy heart cos why????
I can actually get both.

Next, Bf asked wanna eat Kuishinbo or wad.
I said no, i wan piazza hut.
So we went to Pizzahut and then i said i wanted Kuishin bo.
So we went back to Kuishinbo and i said i wanna eat pizzahut.
He just dragged me into Kuishinbo.

3rdly, I said i wanna eat TYHXYM (name too long, lazy to type)
So we went to Gekpoh to eat.
Aft i reached, i ALWAYS end up ordering other things which i will regret when bf's eating his TYHXCMF.

I shld change.
Wheres the determination!?

2009-08-28T00:07:00.002+08:00

I am soooo proud of myself.
I finally managed to do the blog problem which is actually my own com prob.
I was toooo lazy to update my software!

:) SORRY MISS DIARY.

So, i can FINALLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY post pictures.
Till this weekend then.
Cos i'm busy photoshopping!!!

CIAO!

2009-08-27T14:18:00.000+08:00

I AM SOOOO TEMPTED TO SWITCH TO OTHER WEBSITES FOR MY BLOG.
THIS SUCK MAN.
I DONT KNOW WHY IS BLOGGER LIKE THIS.
OR IS IT JUST MINE.

Cos bf's com worked just fine.

2009-08-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

I <3 my new playlist.

Sorry for the lack of updates!
I have 3 big big entries unpublished cos im lazy to do smth about all of those.

Maybe this weekend i'll do smth to it.

Yesterday was HAPPY 2 YRS 9 MTHS btw.
:) Shiawase! :D

2009-08-23T01:19:00.002+08:00

Thursday 20th August 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE KAI EN!
My little cutie is 2 years old!
Getting naughtier each day :D
Like meimei like that.
Sooooo naughty that i wanna bring home.

Hit Sentosa again <3<3
Aft tt went for steamboat (2 way) at ling's house.
SOOOO much food~~~~
Yumyum, i wanna eat again .. T.T
i miss the ham and bacon <3<3

After tt we cut cake for little kaien :D
Slacked awhile and cabbed back to SK.
Damn i hate cabs.
Money suckers.
A short trip nia want to $2x $3x.
%$#%$#^

Friday 21st August 2009

Happy 1000 Days together!
I <3 my bf uber much.

Thanks for everything.
Monetary issues aside (he's paying my phone bills, TY membership, expenses, allowance, shopping, meals etc..)

Thanks for the 'lessons' you've given.
That showed me how much i can improve..
And hw lacked of standards i am.

That from the first day, i was full of bad attitude, stubborn, reckless, bad tempered, talk nvr go thru brain.
Thanks to your patience towards me that made me realised alot of things.

Now, i can confidently say, although i am still stubborn, quick tempered and sometimes sibeh attitude, i've improved a trillion times since 1000 days ago.

You're always there at my each lowest point of time, encouraging me with craps which worked.
You gave me a whole new meaning to the word 'love'.
Today, i really agree on something cliche.
'Money can never ever buy love.'
Although i definately agree that no money, no love. (But they are for shallow couples.)

If 1 day we are to break up, its wont be because of money..
But because as we grow, the differences between us will widen.
Like how we are in the midst of it now.

Beginning was really tough but now that i've gotten used to it, it doesnt hurt (& hate!) as much.

Thanks for making me grow up in the intellect as well.
Now im good at 'your mama is so fat' game.
:P

You made me see through things faster.
Like branded items, people's characters and how many fox tails they have.
Can even almost predict their next move.
Which is sad cos it usually happens.

;

Thanks for the past 2 days, everyone.
Although some friends cant make it, i really did enjoy my 2 days.

And congrats to Ec.
He knows why :P

Status: <3 bleach.

2009-08-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

880th entry.

And i cant blog pictures.
Damit.

<3 bf.
Waiting for him to reach home.

xoxo
Joanne

2009-08-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

This is getting worse.
I hate blogger now!

Tennis for 2hrs odd.
I lost another ball.
Fuck it.
And it went down down down into the swimming pool below.
Fuckfuckfuckfuck it.

I am fucking pissed now.
Cos im having serious headache and all.

2009-08-10T10:01:00.000+08:00

I dont know why eh.
Why my darn laptop can allow blogger to make me load my pictures while bf's lao kok kok laptop can!
Naarrrrrr...bbeeeeiiii.....
(And yes, i really sound like that now. KNS!)

Damn pissing ok, since i've got like a million pictures.

Now, since i cant post picts, laoniang have to post youtube riao.

Caught UP! ytd night.
Darn nice can! No wonder mag ratings gave 4.5 or 5 popcorns!
Personal Rating 4.99999 / 5
The 0.00001 goes to the length of the movie.
Cant they make good movies last longer?

Seriously hor, DAMN funny can.
Was laughing from first 5minutes to last 10minutes.
Funny dao ...

Oh ok, maybe on the other hand, i have huge humour level.
Maybe the whole cinema have something wrong with our heads.
Cos i can predict someone say 'joanne, kua zhang.'
:P I AM LOR COS THE MOVIE ALSO VERY KUA ZHANG.

Damn damn funny.
Bf thought it was more ehhh, loving.
Cos the ahgong think of the ahma den he flew the house up.

Okok, nuff of movie boopers.

;

Saturday 080809

Bright Orange Bikini, Lovely Yellow slippers from Wanling, Sunnies, Super short shorts, Big Bun hairdo, Camera..
And a farking yandao bf. {Ok, you all may nt agree but at least he aint .. LOL (Inside joke!)}
Makes a day out to sentosa, REAL FUN.

Sentosa was great fun.
Beginning there wasnt any sun at all.
Was complaining to bf, nabeh no sun.
Den we slept and slacked and had alcohol and ogle at bikini babes.
Ok, i ogled at them. Bf was half asleep.

Aft tt, i slept halfway den wtf, so hot.
Den i woke up and saw Mr Sun smiling to us.
WOOO freaking happy.
Den i went back to sleep.

Woke up ard 30mins i guess.
Went to dip into the disgusting sea cos there's a bunch of indians who were spitting into the sea.
Oh fuck.
We went deeeep till i cant touch the sand.
(Ok, not that deep cos im not that tall.)

Er no, if you are expecting some RA to happen, it didnt.
In fact, the 2 couples beside us were like all over each other and made me wanna puke.

Couple 1

Girl: *Smile smile*
Boy: You sure you wanna fuck?

*Me and bf turn slowly to them...*
Den the girl squash her boob at the guy's face.

Couple 2

Girl: *Hug the guy.. with the boob at his face den push the guy head underwater.*

*Me and bf stared in disbelieve*

Seriously, i dont know.
I guess we are suaku idiots.
Cos almost every other couple is doing that.

Bf: Eh, can we go other place, i dont want to associate myself with them.

If making out in the ocean is 'norm', den i love my abnormal bf.

Took the coach back to VivoCity.
Told bf, SAVE MONEY, CANNOT BUY ALOT OF THINGS..

5mins later emerged with a brand new red bikini.
:P

We are dollar conscious these days.
Which actually led us to many good deals!

Like i got a brand new hoodie from Giordano and Bf got his nice nice nice shirt cos they are having Buy 1 Free 1.
I swear i love giordano lor, cos the colour's damn nice and Giordano's tees are made for my bf.
ROFL.

Like how we refrain from restaurants and ate at hawker and found out MANY yummilicious stalls.
We ate at yummy fishball stalls, yummy beef noodle stalls etc etc.
At $3!

Kinda difficult initially cos we used to dine at restaurants every single day in the past.
Now the glamour is over, we need the reality.
Eh actually restaurants are made for idiots who are lazy to go out and source for good food.
Money eating bitches.
*self console*

Maybe cos bf's paying for my hp bills, yoga class fees, expenses...
Oh ya did i mention i hit the big 2 for my hp bills again?
NABEH! :(
Singtel really hates me.
Cos i haven pay.

Oh and the hair bubble dye.
The colour's eating in but the dye is kinda harsh.
Hair dropped quite alot after dying for the first 2 washes.
And it got drier and drier.
So im like mad over conditioner already.

But its cheap dye!
$20, waddya expect.
At least there's colour......

Ok, time to wake my bf up.
Nehneh, the rain's coming in and he's still sleeping.

2009-08-08T00:21:00.002+08:00

For my blessed Saturday...
1} Sentosa with Bf
2} Colour our hair tgt with the newwww liese bubble hair dye in sweet pink. I know, my bf gg to have sweet pink hair!
3} Relagggg at Sentosa omg

For Sunday
1} Rot at home.
2} Maybe bring Pinky for her run
3} National day on TV with the rest of my boliao nothing to do family. :D Damn boliao, i hate National Day Parade.

For Monday
1} TENNISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
2} SWIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

2009-08-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LONG WEEKENDS BABIES!

Poor me gg run in the court again.
Hopefully i wont lose any balls this time.
Sibeh ex.

Sentosa this sat with my bf i think.
Go relagrelag.
So long no go and be healthy.

Time to go!

xoxo

2009-08-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

Today's my first tennis game with bf.
Hell loads of fun and blisters on my feet cos i was wearing my new new shoes and dang, it hurts okay!
And i had to run and pick balls.......

Damn shag now but it was good fun.
As in, meaningful fun.
Better than walk ard and waste money.
Ok, the court aint cheap too.
But bah! You get wad i mean.

Damn tired.
I needddddd to rest, like now!